Still alive

[self biased]

True, but the unfortunatey reality is that I'm not such a hot ticket in the market anymore. Like... I think the best thing is to forgiver her and plead insanity for her. I do want her back. of course there are conditions, that is she has to respect our marriage (kind of difficult because she hasn't done it now). She will be in line for some while because her mother is watching her now like a hawk. She doesn't accept this kind of BS. One reason I was extremely glad to see her, and will be tomorrow.

you're bargaining.

[Hauldren Collider]

Trying to get all the facts and getting them isn't going to help. It will only make things worse.

It's over and the sooner you accept it the sooner you can protect everything else that is important to you.

This, 100%.

True, but the unfortunatey reality is that I'm not such a hot ticket in the market anymore. Like... I think the best thing is to forgiver her and plead insanity for her. I do want her back. of course there are conditions, that is she has to respect our marriage (kind of difficult because she hasn't done it now). She will be in line for some while because her mother is watching her now like a hawk. She doesn't accept this kind of BS. One reason I was extremely glad to see her, and will be tomorrow.

If she hasn't respected your marriage in the past, why would she now?

[Pekka]

This, 100%.


If she hasn't respected your marriage in the past, why would she now?

Of course this is true, it's just too hard to accept

LIke she was my WIFE!!!!

And she started a relationship with a co-worker, who came to our house, our bed, she devised many plans to do this and made sure I would leave the house with the kids so they could have their fun...

They've been gleaming for the house me and my dad built ****ing monsters...

And she says she can't wait much longer, that she is leaving me... I mean wtf, literally wtf? This is horrible...

I don't have anyone else (why I keep clinging onto the idae that this might stillwork out)... How could she of all people have done this? Now?

Well I did find a sex game in my bathroom today so.... that's always a nice thing to find, especially when it's a new game to you.

[Pekka]

I mean she was the one that was suposed to hold my hand at my last moment, talk to me, etc. Well, not now.

And she is the one who will stay with teh kids... what a mom will they be having.... my kids too! and that ******* will probably be happy to come into this house for breakfast.. with my kids. "Mom's new friend.." I feel lke pukinh again...

[Bereta_Eder]

I hope you live many years and give many asskickings to all deserving parties.
How people react is strange.
I was talking with a friend and he told me how it is more often than one would think, that when a woman gets pregnant her husband cheats on her.
I mean she is at the most vulnerable phase of her life and because some asshat is feeling stressed he cheats.
Could be that something like that is happening here, only even more damning. It is repulsive any way you think about it.
Hopefully this isn't the case but even if it isn't, would you really want her the way she is treating you?

[Dinner]

That said, a parent trying to use the kids as a weapon by **** talking about the other parent is just about unforgivable. My philosophy has always been never speak bad of the other parent, even if it is horrible, and especially never do it in front of the kids. If the other person is really so bad then the kids will figure it out on their own without the other parent baiting the trap for them. Really, the only reason one parent talks **** about the other parent to the kids is to attempt to alienate the affection of the children and thus use them as a weapon against the other parent.

[dannubis]

That said, a parent trying to use the kids as a weapon by **** talking about the other parent is just about unforgivable. My philosophy has always been never speak bad of the other parent, even if it is horrible, and especially never do it in front of the kids. If the other person is really so bad then the kids will figure it out on their own without the other parent baiting the trap for them. Really, the only reason one parent talks **** about the other parent to the kids is to attempt to alienate the affection of the children and thus use them as a weapon against the other parent.

This a thousand times over.

[Pekka]

This a thousand times over.

Yes... This is true... this is whaT REALLY hurts. And it's unnecessary and she lied about it (of course). I will tell about this to her mom today though, that our kids have said thinhs like these and it really worries me. This is so sick that I have to see how I can get through this, I was making food for thte kids 5 minutes ago adn felt like I will drop and go out. I regained ccontrol but I don't know what's going to happen. I haven't been able to eat for liek a week normally, and it's vital that I eat well when having cancer, this is jsut the worst thing at the worst time.

[Ben Kenobi]

it's hard for me to even imagine what your situation is like, but i don't think that the chance of (maybe) not dying alone is worth all the heartache, bitterness and pain you're planning to put yourself through.

Indeed, there's worse things out there than being alone, sad to say. Again, talk it out with your dad and see if you can't come up with a way to give the house to your kids and not your wife.

[Fake Boris]

Put your share of the house in a trust fund for your children.

[DaShi]

PEKKA! If you don't post regularly, we're all going to worry!

[pchang]

Sisu, Pekka. Sisu.

[Pekka]

Sorry!

Got results! Good results!

So... there were no "enhancements" from contrast agent in my MRIs.... meaning no super aggressive cancer cells in big groups were detected. It doesn't mean I'm clean but it does mean the treatments were beneficial I'm in no acute danger anymore

But other news which sucks!

My wife has been a real ***** to me lately and finally she confessed. She's been cheating on me the moment of last diagnosis. Not only that, but the man is married with children, and my wife showend NO remorse what so ever. NONE.

In fact, she was a bit disappointed after I told her my good news.

She has also told me she wants to liv ein this house and date new men, because I'm history, and that she would not wait TOO long becuase if I lived for liek 10 years, it would be unfair for her.

She's been a total psycho lately. Not just a bit, but as in real ****ing psycho. I'm thinking a real narcissist or sociopath. Perhaps narcissist. She lacks ALL empathy toward me. Me living or dying is simply not interesting to her. This makes so much sense, now I know why I was always scared to piss her off and not know what pisses her off, se gas lighted me ALL the time and I blamed it on chemo drugs...
... needless to say she's history now. I got her on tape confessing and saying outrageous, insane **** too. LIke she said if I want to play dirty, I wont' see the kids then. **** her. If she wants to play dirty, we can play dirty, but I've been collecting evidene the whole time and she'll go to the looney house after that show. All I got to do is press play and let her do the talking. So she was waiting for me to die so she'd get the house with the new man, unfortunately for her, I found out, and am a lot healthier than I was supposed to. Karma is a *****!!

She has absolutely no power over me anymore. None what so ever. I realised after reading others experiences that this is EXACTLY our house 24/7... that I'm a victim of abuse from a real narcissist, an abusive terrorist. She's so gone now. I don't love her at all. I'm FREEEeeeee!!!! single and a lot more happier than before. She has started to play dirty a long time ago, she has manipulated our kids (told **** about me to my 3year old daughter), unforgivable crap. Also guess what? My wife is a social worker, works for child protection no less. A REAL nutcase. BUt she never understood after she was gas lighting me for so long and claiming I was aggressive toward her, that I started taping it to prove she was crazy talkign, that I've got her! I even told her listen, I got you on tape, you just confessed cheating on me... and even now she sometimes forgets she confessed and plays as if she don't know we ALL know.I've yet to determine how dangouers she is. I figure not very... But yeah, lawyers here we come.

[Elok]

Dag, you just can't get a break, man . . . good luck, whatever happens.

My only advice is to try hard to keep a cool head about this, mostly for the kids' sake. It's not fair to make them deal with TWO crazy parents. I know divorce proceedings can make you crazy, and it's not fair that you have to take the high ground after all this, but she doesn't look like doing it so I guess it's on you.

[Pekka]

Break? Of course not... After all I'm free now. This is good news! I'm OK health wise and caught my wife's lies. I could be dead and they would have their way. I as lucky!

It all makes sense now, my wife told me how she always hated me, never really loved me anyways... I mean it makes sense now, she is a narcissist, a parasite.

I mean... few example when we started dating: she didi everything I said I like... like I said I like driving a motorcycle, she went as far as to drive a MC license, with no intention to ever actually ride a bike. Just to win me over.

She bought bunch of philosophy books she never read or was really interested in anyways....

Once, she actually smelled my penis to make sure I was not cheating her. I didn't understand it at the moment, but now I do. I jsut figured she wanted to smell it. Stupid of me, but I'm a man. That was possessive, almost sadism type of objectifying.

I was nothing but a resource for her, and all these years were nothing but a lie. But I was able to expose it so... end of lie.