Please don't take this too seriously.

[Lorizael]

One of the big things my therapist has tried to get across to me, paiktis, is that it's okay to screw up sometimes. We're all human and we're all going to stumble and make mistakes from time to time. But making a mistake doesn't mean that everything is falling apart and you're a failure and it's all hopeless (even if it might feel that way). It sounds like you're learning that lesson.

[Al B. Sure!]

Bereta_Elder is paiktis?

[Sava]

Yup. Mind blown, eh?

[self biased]

Bereta_Elder is paiktis?

Did you not get the memo?

[Bereta_Eder]

Thanks Lori.
The thing is that I am in a sort of a dilema and while I was thinking that this type of thinking (failure, or perceived failure on one thing) does not mean catastrophy for me anymore, it seems it percevers.
It has some things to do with your case seeing as in the heart of it is relationships and important facets of it like progeny.
I know I won't find answers here, or anywhere, and it's not something that can be "decided" on the spot.
When the week starts (and the SO returns) the harsh realities of life will take me by the hand and show me where to go and such mooshie thoughts will dissapear (hopefully not in the botom of a glass)

[Lorizael]

I shaved. My life is still terrible.

[Bereta_Eder]

But your "depressed" humour intact

[Sava]

I shaved. My life is still terrible.

At least people still try to convince you that you aren't a failure. That'll stop in a few years.

[Lorizael]

Well, I'm currently paying a professional to tell me I'm not a failure, so...

[The Mad Monk]

No matter how bad it seems, there are people who always have it worse.

This is a twenty-four part documentary on several such people.

[Lorizael]

What's with the hikikomori kick, TMM?

[dannubis]

I shaved. My life is still terrible.

Possible explanation: ugly face
Potential solution: grow beard again

[The Mad Monk]

What's with the hikikomori kick, TMM?

Watched a couple anime dealing with them recently, noted similarities, that's all.


Spent a year like that when I lost a job back in...1999? End of unemployment kicked me back into gear.


Welcome To The NHK is great, hilarious and dark.

[Lorizael]

I had a job in 1999. I delivered the Gaithersburg Gazette to my neighborhood. I was paid $18 every two weeks.

[ricketyclik]

I haven't read much of this thread, but when feeling depressed I find it helpful to remember something I heard a neuroscientist/psychoanalyst say on the radio. To paraphrase/summarise:

All human emotions are there for an evolutionary reason. It has been found that people in a depressed state actually have a better perception of reality than those not. He hypothesised that when something happens that isn't good, people get depressed and retreat to lick their wounds, and this heightened reality perception allows them to view what it is that's made them depressed in a realistic way, and to learn the lessons from it so that hopefully they won't allow it to happen to them again.

I should point out that he was talking about garden variety environmentally induced depression, not clinical. I haven't read enough of this thread to know what Lorizael is suffering.