Please don't take this too seriously.

[Lorizael]

God is always excluded and believers always insulted on these and many other forums. Yet in my 20s God pulled me out of the same sort of mess you are in. Get on your knees and pray. I prayed and told God that I knew he was there and I'd stay on the floor until he helped me.

Now I was totally broken at that point, completely without self. I don't know if that was a part of why God responded. I never allowed myself to seriously consider killing myself, that's one difference we have. Try...pray...

Don't ever even consider the possibility. Better to starve waiting for God to tell you to eat. Whatever you are enduring is better than what you will face if you end the life God gave you. Do not embrace death while you still have a breath to breathe.

If you feel like you cannot carry the burden on your soul any longer, welcome to the club. Jesus came and hung out with and ministered to the sick. When my burden was lifted I felt the love of God and no other experience in my life compared, not even close.

Lancer, I'm not going to convert to Christianity (or any religion). I'm not going to argue about this with you, but I ask that you please not bring it up again.

[molly bloom]

Life kind of sucks.

You sound as though you're stuck in a rut and actively not doing anything to effect a change. Travel, exercise, different kinds of food, music, art... they all provide stimuli which can help.

If all else fails, read Dorthy Parker's 'Resume' :

Razors pain you; Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you; And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful; Nooses give;
Gas smells awful; You might as well live.

It's sage advice.

[Wiglaf]

Youtube's down, now I want to kill myself

[Sava]

youtube works for me

[Lorizael]

You sound as though you're stuck in a rut and actively not doing anything to effect a change. Travel, exercise, different kinds of food, music, art... they all provide stimuli which can help.

I was trying to effect a change. I've been working against my complacency the last 2 years by returning to school and studying, and in general I've been doing okay (not happy, but okay) for the last 5 years or so. I've also been going to therapy for the last year and have put a lot of work into changing bad habits. But then I got tired. I am just ****ing tired of having to work so hard every single day just to be functional.

[molly bloom]

I am just ****ing tired of having to work so hard every single day just to be functional.

The depression makes you tired- it's a rope of sand though.

You do need to change physically too- not just cognitively. In terms of combatting my depression, the best thing I ever did was join a gym. Weekly regular exercise will make changes- you just need to convnce yourself to get up and start exercising.

[Sava]

[Ben Kenobi]

Pills/meds? If you can find one that works, great. But it's mostly "pin the neurotransmitter on the donkey". And anything that suppresses inhibition could lead to more "impulsive" results.

Except for Pot. Pot has no negative side effects and always cures your problems.

Anyways, you're not alone, Lori. I find setting concrete goals even small ones helps immeasurably.

[Wiglaf]

youtube works for me

Even when you search for a video?

[Kidlicious]

Except for Pot. Pot has no negative side effects and always cures your problems.

Anyways, you're not alone, Lori. I find setting concrete goals even small ones helps immeasurably.

If you kill enough brain cells you will be too retarded to be depressed.

[Sava]

Even when you search for a video?

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[Wiglaf]

Broken like Lori's brain. Thanks for checking. Bummed right now.

[Sava]

anything for Wiglaf

[Buster Crabbe's Uncle]

So Lori - howyadoin' today?

[Lorizael]

Every morning I go down to the cafeteria and make a terrible financial and health decision by buying two donuts and a thing of orange juice for breakfast. Today, they were out of the orange juice I normally buy, so I wandered around in a confused state for several minutes. Later, I returned to the juice counter where a cafeteria worker was restocking. I asked him if I could have an orange juice (which he hadn't gotten around to unloading yet), and he gave me one. I didn't realize until about a minute later how momentous this simple exchange was. Normally, terrified of unplanned social encounters, I would have avoided the cafeteria worker at all cost or maybe chosen a different brand of juice that I did not enjoy so as not to bother him. But today, with no coercion necessary, I decided what I wanted and I took asked politely for it. This is a major accomplishment for me. I'm so proud of myself. Oh god I hate my life.