Ex

[Bereta_Eder]

jnow i'm goig outside tyo get a red bull



it's german/european


it's filled with cafeine and taurine


it's like mountain dew on steroids


wehen i come back I expect nothing dofferent exept I'm noty ****ing smomkingg

[Bereta_Eder]

awk k
ok


I think it is fair yto say I've drunk

one bottle of wine altuogh some of it went to out out calamari burning, it went great great recipeee


but then two more bottlres of 500ml wine


yep that's two bottle s of wine minu some ****

now i drunk 1 hell
plus one more hell


thats taurine and cafeine and sugar



its hungarain its half price than the german redx bull


I say Live you r life because you're going to sdiw

[Bereta_Eder]

I don't lielk to bue drunk but when you're drunk and yo u go our at night?


you're king

noone touches you


noone touches you being sober either


well it makes no sense to drink really

[Bereta_Eder]

black arab pakistani you go out at night


there are studies that say that cxriminalitydoenst really go up just by having more immigrands


I mean i hate rioght wing, gutt them but I'm also not too fond of anyeone lese


serene


you have to have a job and a SO and themn things arent so bad

but then you have youtr mother who is always asking for moire

[Bereta_Eder]

it's not really her

it's yourself


you are prjecting your wishes on people ikportant for you


it always goes like that

[Bereta_Eder]

but we are ALLL going to die in the end


that's inescapable

we are food for woems

we are all going to diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



****ing hell


now, it makes sense to make sense of the little time you have on earth


if ypou die NOW


will you say? i'm glad with what I;ve done?


will you lori? (or anyone?)

I would

[Bereta_Eder]

I would


I would sya

God, take my life now, I'm content


althopugh I don't want to die

I want to live to do stupid stuff

you know, to breath qa fresh air smell the grass, go to the sea,, ****ing hell maybe death is the absolut nothing but one would have to be creazy to want it

[Bereta_Eder]

we are all going there


there's no escaping it

the ones we love, us we are all going to die.


that's the inescapable rule of god/mnature

we are all going to die.

[Bereta_Eder]

I'm not in ah hurry though


I look around I say

God, thank you

for allowing me to live


for the SO for the family for the joys I love the sea

Thank you man (God)


thank you

I'm grateful

[Bereta_Eder]

I thinmk mylife is an altercation of being angry and of being greateful

If you put me in the middle of it, I'm angry I want to do/conquer **** people.(n a good sense)

If you leaveme alone for a moment I guess I'm just really grateful becuase life is amiracle and I was allowed/chosen to take part in it


and socrates said that a life not exdamined is not worth living

[Lorizael]

wut

[Bereta_Eder]

[Flubber]

Lori

i know now a lot of people have said " just get out there " and " forget the ex" and unfortunately I will add to that list . Decisions are made and the past is just that the past .

I don't know you well and certainly it sounds as if you have had to deal with issues far greater than I have ever faced but for me dating went from something that was very hard to something that became very easy .

i was a painfully shy teen and I carried that into college . I had managed a couple of relationships ( initiated by the woman in question each time )but when single it was tough. BUt somewhere around my graduation for my first degree it all changed . Maybe it was maturity or a culmination of advice from others or the fact that I had been hitting the gym hard and felt fit and confident . BUt i ended a relationship and was at peace with being single . Hell for the first time since I had was 16 I didn't see being single as some kind of failure in me and I enjoyed it . I had a complete attitude change and I approached women not as a supplicant but as an equal . I dated a fair bit that summer and while not every girl said yes to a date, the poster " Dinner" is correct .. If you approach a single woman sensibly and politely, the vast vast majority are willing to give you a chance . IF you are employed, sane and approach them with respect and confidence my view is 95 percent say yes .

I dont one know if that helps .. it's kinda like telling someone lacking confidence to " just be confident ". But part of my big attitude change was the complete realization that failing to get a date or even being completely shot down was no big deal . If I had asked ten women out and all said no, who cares ? It doesn't go on the community bulletin board and no one calls your friends and family . And the funny thing is , that once you realize that and really wouldn't be that bothered if they said no since you would just ask someone else , most say yes .

so my advice of you want to date is to date .. pick activities you actually like and do them . If someone interests you, ask them out early ( don't let them get all built up in your head so it's a big deal if they turn you down. If you don't see someone you like in an activity then just enjoy the activity since the activity should be worthwhile in and of itself .

now for the ex. I know you said getting laid didn't cure you and getting laid 5 times might not either but one amazing connection with someone else can dull that past pain and allow you to move on . I am sometimes an advocate for just getting laid a few times but that's usually when someone is felling low and discarded after being dumped or cheated on . ( nothing like bedding a few beauties to reaffirm that ). BUt that wasn't your situation so the only benefit to going out and getting laid is it simply good practice for you in wooing a woman .

I am blessed with a wonderful wife now and every good day with her brings me happiness . DO I still have some very fond memories of three relationships in particular ( and one special past one most of all ) ? Hell ya. Were there times before I met my wife that I thought hard that I would never find anyone that I could fall as hard as I did for one particular ex .. again .. hell ya!! MOst people have at least one " What if" relationship in their past . One that was sooo amazing and only if you could have done x or y differently , you could likely have been together forever. MAYBE YOU COULD!! But you didn't . So accept your decisions and move on. This issue is not unique ... hell its downright common . THe only unique feature are some mental health or anxiety issues which make it a bit tougher for you to date and move on. BUt pining for an ex ??? The only answer has to be moving on and living your life . BE single .. get laid .. date or don't ... just do what makes you happy knowing you and your ex are not getting back together .

[Ben Kenobi]

Just don't sit back and whine about how you will never find somebody. That is a losing strategy.
Be optimistic and live your life. Keep an open mind. Do go to places where you can meet people. Who knows, you might just bump into the next Miss Right walking down the street.

This. Good advice. Lori, if you want to change you life for the better you have to change your life for the better and take proactive steps to making it better. You've already been making those steps for a good long while.

Now it's time to work on a different direction. Good luck, Lori!

[Lorizael]

IF you are ... sane ... my view is 95 percent say yes.

Damn.