Originally posted by Bereta_Eder
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You're correct though, or at least I think the same. The moment I said enough, it was sort of over. And I did see through it. I am a bit ashamed as I saw it a loong time ago but made no effort to call it out. I kept thinking maybe I am just being paranoid. Remind, I have brain damage and I do have a horrible divorce, so I thought there is a possibility of me projecting that crap on her.
I know I will never hear from her again. She promised, but I just know. She has that coldness around her. She walks, and sees no one. She does not give two ****s if she bumps into someone. Like a bully she goes through a crowd. Never looks back if she accidentally hit someone. Most people have a reaction to do that, she does not.
Also, how she treated others differently. She had to make a choice soon. If she has multiple boyfriends, her dad is coming here again soon, so she has to choose one to present. So either me, or someone else. So she had to break up with me now, to get the timeline in order. Or not have me on her bday. I don't even know what the bs story about me will be to her friends. Right now, I don't care.
I wonder why I was so hooked. She seemed perfect. Perfect in all ways, except emotionally. I believe she is dumping people. Just a feeling though. Maybe I am paranoid. We'll see. But at least I'm free now. Obviously I have some issues and I have to find a good one next, not one of them energy sucking people. I am very busy, I have kids, so my social life is very limited. Maybe I should try them online dating websites?
edit: So I paid for the whole trip to London. Airfare, hotel room, fine dining, tickets to the musical. She got one dinner, and few drinks. I'd say my spenditure was around 3000 EUR, and hers around 500 EUR. That's not the point, the point is she wnet nuts when at the airport we got some snacks, worth 20 pounds and she told me "would you get that hon?" and I said "I thought you'd get it?". She went nuts and cause a scene. She berated me that she asked me to get one thing and I said "NO!". I figured she'd get it. She got really upset. She was shaking her head and all "don't talk to me" and going over and over, "you jstu said no". She was so pissed off. Make no mistake, she's a doctor, she can afford it, even when I make more money than she does. I felt she feels entiteld to everything. And "You have a calculator in your head". Well no, but I do know the approximates, not like I don't keep a tab on what I've spent, no detailed figure here but yeah I know it's around 3k already.
We went fine dining and I paid over 300 pounds for it, and she promised to get the next one for the next evening. Right after that, as we were in the hotel room, definitely not having sex, as she was full, she said, "it was a bit of a disappointment, I think we should cancel our reservation, I don't want to be disappointed for the menu, it is expensive". She was all about paying the next one when I got the bill and asked if she wants to split, as she was all about splitting cost. Classic.
edit2: what pisses me off is that some other woman would have appreciated it very much. She did not. I can't believe how *****y she was about all of it. So unappreciative. Any normal person would've been taken by the hospitability and opportunity. It sucks, because I can offer that, yet I seem to attract vampires.
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