Round II - This time I will KILL IT!

[Dinner]

The better commute totally makes it worth it. The daily commute can totally make or break a job for me.

[Pekka]

Definitely. 4 hours every day... I calculated that if I get my way, I'll travel only 90 minutes a day, and only twice a week. So that's... 18 hours and 30 minutes more personal time A MONTH. That's just so much time, even if I don't work that time... that's like an extra weekend right there. That's a new hobby. Or an old one. That's time with kids. Easy choice should I have my way (which I might not have). I'm in a great position though, one of the people recommending me is my bosses bosses boss, a director. An experienced, international director at that. Plus he would recommend me even though I'd leave, because we have a great dialouge and I've told him I'm not happy and that happiness for me is all that matters - and he agrees 100 %.

Just think about it, 20 hours a month just in a buss. And that's costly, that's 200 euros a month as well. So I pay... 2400 euros a year to sit in a bus for close to 1000 hours! Equalling 40 days, I sit in a bus for a MONTH!!! That's a waste of life right there. ****, I might quit just because of that and start manufacturing sandals out of my kids poo and call it organic.

[pchang]

200 euros a month for the bus seems pretty expensive.

[Pekka]

200 euros a month for the bus seems pretty expensive.

Especially considerin it's late 30 minute every single day. No compensation for that. It's ironic, we think we have the best public transportation in the world. Not even close. It was better in India!! Then again, it was pretty good in India.

[Bereta_Eder]

Hey pekka! All the best from me too
(paiktis. 10 years later )

[Pekka]

Hey pekka! All the best from me too
(paiktis. 10 years later )

Thanks!

Is it still all about SAGAPO?

[Bereta_Eder]

Always Cyprus douze pointes!

[Nikolai]

Especially considerin it's late 30 minute every single day. No compensation for that. It's ironic, we think we have the best public transportation in the world. Not even close. It was better in India!! Then again, it was pretty good in India.

It's cheaper and better in Norway. Not bad.

[Pekka]

Oh well... my radiation treatment is now past its mid... only 2 weeks out of 6 left.

Today morning was like a movie scene that you don't want... you notice you're actually losing hair. It sucks. I've been growing my hair since the operation and it finally disguised my huge scar and not the hair is starting to fall out... well not fall out but if I put my hand through it, I'll have bunch of it in my hands... like in movies.

Also my head hurts... or rather me scalp... I thought it was my head until my wife looked my head and noticed the parts that hurt have red skin... not liek totally burned but like rashy. It sucks because it actually hurts, burns a little. Also my scar is now achy... nothing really painful though. Mostly psychological stuff, like I'm now a characted from a movie with cancer. Now it's sort of real. When I think absout it, I've gone through much more than a little losing hair, I've had my skull cracked open twice, brain material burned off, and so forth.... so this is nothing compared and are symptoms from the treatments but it makes it even more real.

The burning sensation from my skull went away IMMEDIATELY when I vaporised some THC though. I love my new vaporiser Too bad I have to break the law to fight, but I fight regardless. I don't think I'm doing anything wrong here, quite the opposite. And if this helps me, I'll dedicate the rest of my life to help others with the same methods. This I promise. And I'll do it for free or so that I can eat and help and pay my bills. That's my promise for the future and my contribution. I'm already logging what I do quite diligently, what I eat, hwo much I weigh, stuff like that.

Truth to be told I'm getting a bit scared again. But I guess this is normal, and when I woke up, my head was hurting (from the rash though, just didn't know it right then), I was like damn, are these new tumors.... now THAT is a scary thought and unfortunately very possible for me... This usually turns into gliblastoma multiforme in time, so I'll do my best to hang on, survive, see if I get super lucky and if science catches up. Not much of a strategy but better than giving up or starting to burn the candle from both ends.

[Pekka]

SO please if you see any interesting news about Glioblastoma (or brain cancer trials in general), let me know!!!

[Ben Kenobi]

Keep on trucking Pekka!

[Pekka]

I've got to tell you though, having two under 3 year olds who both have that phase going on where they express their own will, which is the opposite of yours, screaming, yelling adn shouting 24/7 is freaking making me insane. It's just tough to relax when there is this circus going on, not to mention my wife being tired of course and angry at things, having to deal with this all. I just sense the negativity, I think it's a real force, a physical force. I don't think it's the weed, I can feel when they all come home tired, after a whole day of battle. It is like this black cloud that descends upon the whole houshold and you can physically feel it.

I've been thinking we need to get on a vacation WITHOUT the kids SOON, or then at least I need to go to stay at my moms for a weekend, or 4 or 5 days or so, so I can relax. Read a book. I can't read a book because there's constant shouting or crying going on. This is bad for my CPU.

[Sava]

Pekka

[molly bloom]

Pekka- try Vitmain D or Vitamin E oil applied directly to the scar (as well as taken internally) - it helps speed healing and reduces the scar tissue.

Worked on my partner's head injuries and my gall bladder operation scars.

[Sava]

What about stretch marks from weight lifting? They aren't noticeable most of the time. But when I get a little sun, that skin doesn't tan. It sticks out a little more.