hell, apparently, has frozen over.

[self biased]

hard to tell, ted. the pic is of when she was fifteen... and looks alot like amanda's...

[Az]

If I'd take any pics of her now, I'd be in stalker country, and that's just wrong. plus she's in the army now.

[self biased]

Originally posted by East Street Trader
In which case stop thinking about the past and just woo the lass.

Maybe you get burned again but that is better than life in emotional limbo.

a: she's got a boyfreind currently. she might play that game, and drew me into it to begin with... but not now. i need to save what integirty i've got left.

as for being burned again... by her? there's nothing left to fuel a fire. she's already consumed my soul it feels like, so no matter what, i'm wandering in an emotional limbo.

[connorkimbro]

well ****, since we're all posting pictures now. . .

i cropped and edited out the dude she was with, as well as the background scenery . . . (incidentally, it was taken at the top of the world trade center)

[self biased]

i feel your pain, connor.

the thing is, i've had gfs that were more supportive, nicer to me, and entirely better in bed than amanda. but i'm pining for her. more likely though, the way i felt when i was with her.

[Ted Striker]

maybe it's not about her

maybe it's about you

maybe you have something to prove and she's the only one you feel like can validate it

[connorkimbro]

the thing is, i've had gfs that were more supportive, nicer to me, and entirely better in bed than amanda. but i'm pining for her. more likely though, the way i felt when i was with her.

I as well. . . never all of those in the same person, but all of those in several people I've dated since . . .

i think Ted just hit the nail on the head. . .

[self biased]

quite possible, ted. let's hope to god i can prove to here whatever my subconscious needs to prove, because i'm facking tired of this shizzle.

and now, the sun is coming up, and i need to be up around one in the afternoon... that leaves about six hours between then and now.

and i'm not concerned with her finding our chat transcripts here. the vain little thing would probably like that we're talking about her.

[connorkimbro]

probably she'd be pissed about what i had to say about her too.

but that would only show that i'm right. . .

[self biased]

no. i think she'd deny it, but be proud. in either event two things are going to happen.

i'm going to bed, instead of reading one more fackin' post here, and

i'm going to incorporate this in this story i'm writing... somehow.

[Elok]

Originally posted by self biased
i'm going to incorporate this in this story i'm writing... somehow.

Just try to integrate it smoothly:

Silence fell over the group as they entered the room. Tina gasped and dropped her glass; it shattered on the floor. Mrs. Hartleby lay on the table, eyes staring glassily at the ceiling, a knife buried in her chest up to the hilt.
"But-but-but how?" Joe stuttered. "We caught the murderer! It was Bob, wasn't it? Wasn't it?"
They all turned and looked at Roy expectantly. The grizzled detective puffed thoughtfully on his pipe for a few minutes. Finally he spoke.
"No," he said, "I don't think it was. Bob must have been set up."
Katie looked horrified. "Golly! By who?"
Roy's face grew more solemn still. "I don't know. But I begin to detect the evil hand of my old arch-nemesis."
"You don't mean-"
"Yes! It was that stuck-up goth ho Amanda!"
"GASP!"

Not too realistic, right?

[chequita guevara]

But life in the fire is so damned exilerating. Why do you think the moth is attracted to the flame?

At my age, I wouldn't do it. But if I were young still, hell yeah I would. Second time around, you get it out of yur system, have some great sex, and move on.

[Dr Strangelove]

My guess is that some day she'll convert to fundamentalist Christianity. Heck, she'll probably become one of these hard-core, looney "end-of-times" people. Maybe what she really wants is an all dominating spiritual master, sorta like that guy at Waco.

[Zylka]

Wow Az, she's gorgeous even at 15. Looks like a real sweetheart who becomes fast paced beyond your own security and temporary confidence a la entry to high school. Kind of like this one

(didn't she gain weight by this senior year - though.)

[self biased]

thanks for the insight guys... i might have only gotten a few hours sleep, but i was certainly more at rest...

and my roommat had several choice words to say about her... something about bludgening the monster that's inhabiting her to death with his penis....