hell, apparently, has frozen over.

[self biased]

i've just spent the last three hours talking to my ex amanda. catching up on things... i'm still shaking from the adrenaline rush... i thought she was gonna crucify me. it's been nearly four years since we've last spoken.

apparently she styles herself a monster. said one took her over... at any rate, i feel incredibly at peace, and yet on edge in a whole new direction. i've spent so long fearing our first contact since everything went pear shaped, that now that we've had a rather amicable conversation, i'm at a loss for what to do next.

there's no chance of us getting back together, and from what i've read, that's a good thing. i might be self biased, but that girl takes egocentrisim to f*cken trancendant levels.

has anyone else had a similar experience?

[self biased]

picture:

[self biased]

picture #2:

[Az]

let it go, she's ugly, anyway.

yeah, right


seriously, if she's a ****ty person, nothing matters.

[self biased]

yeah, i'd love to, but first i have to figure out if i can separate the concept of being in love with someone from her.

[Ecthy]

Azazel, answer only when you know what these things are like

apart from that: when hell freezes over = the call of ktulu. thank you.

[connorkimbro]

she looks quite ready to bit. . . . err, nevermind. lol

actually, i think she's quite attractive, if a little scary/intimidating.

[Dis]

she's not ugly! a bit too much makeup, but that's another matter

[self biased]

it's the whole goth thing...

[connorkimbro]

the eyebrows are a little too thin and fake looking for my taste, but she does have a beautiful facial structure

[self biased]

thank, guys... i'm trying to get over her, not fall even deeper for her.

[Ecthy]

is there a chance you might convert her from gothism to some less eerie deathmetalism or so?

[self biased]

none, whatsover. she's proud of becoming a monster....

[Ecthy]

so in all those 4 years you were still in love with her? does Tia know that?

must be another case of that "big love" thing. even when in happy relationships, guys tend to fall back to the "one and true love" they had in their teens or so. strange thing.

[Ecthy]

I wonder who it'll be for me, Kerstin or Inge or Anne...