What is it?
I have faith, but sometimes I can't help myself but doubt. I always end up not doubting, but I think there is a small part of me that doubts. 0.5 % part of me doubts. To have true faith, that would be 100% right? No doubt at all. And I keep possibility open, that some other religion is right, and I'm wrong. If I had 100% true faith, I wouldn't do that, right? I guess what I'm saying is, I believe that others might be right and I wouldn't go 'NO WAY!' but 'Ok..good for you'.
I also sometimes base it on wrong methods and values.
Like being afraid that when I die, I'll be lost forever or go to hell, if there is a heaven, I'd like to go there. But that's pretty selfish in a way, right? Wanting to go there, and keeping that as one big reason to believing in something. If I had 100% true faith, I wouldn't have to.
I've also used my prayers wrong sometimes, as a kid I praid for computer like a year in a row. I think that's misusing them. Also many times, I've known that this is against God, but still did it just thinking 'he won't mind' or 'he'll forgive me'. That's screwed up! How can God forgive me if I deliberately used the loop hole?
Sometimes I regret those things, and about some of those things, my regret is not sincere. I'd like it to be, but it's not.
What should I do and how can I be better person when it comes to these things? What is true faith? It doesn't necessarily mean fundy stuff, so spare me.
I have faith, but sometimes I can't help myself but doubt. I always end up not doubting, but I think there is a small part of me that doubts. 0.5 % part of me doubts. To have true faith, that would be 100% right? No doubt at all. And I keep possibility open, that some other religion is right, and I'm wrong. If I had 100% true faith, I wouldn't do that, right? I guess what I'm saying is, I believe that others might be right and I wouldn't go 'NO WAY!' but 'Ok..good for you'.
I also sometimes base it on wrong methods and values.
Like being afraid that when I die, I'll be lost forever or go to hell, if there is a heaven, I'd like to go there. But that's pretty selfish in a way, right? Wanting to go there, and keeping that as one big reason to believing in something. If I had 100% true faith, I wouldn't have to.
I've also used my prayers wrong sometimes, as a kid I praid for computer like a year in a row. I think that's misusing them. Also many times, I've known that this is against God, but still did it just thinking 'he won't mind' or 'he'll forgive me'. That's screwed up! How can God forgive me if I deliberately used the loop hole?
Sometimes I regret those things, and about some of those things, my regret is not sincere. I'd like it to be, but it's not.
What should I do and how can I be better person when it comes to these things? What is true faith? It doesn't necessarily mean fundy stuff, so spare me.
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