Please don't take this too seriously.

[Lorizael]

I used to watch a lot of The Teaching Company's lectures. And some of MIT's open courseware stuff. I haven't done any MOOCs, although I did sign up for one of MIT's edX courses. But I'm not even going to my real classes, which I've paid for. So it seems kind of backwards to start taking fake classes during the time I should be attending/studying for my real classes.

[Lorizael]

My next lesson is in 1.5 hours. I have classes in the middle of the workday. Because I'm too ashamed to tell my boss/coworkers that I'm no longer going to class, I still leave and then come back at the appropriate times. While I'm "at class" I'm usually learning valuable lessons from the ceiling above my bed.

[Lorizael]

Do I find the classes interesting? No, and that's my biggest problem (school-wise). It's probably just a symptom of the depression, because I don't find anything interesting right now. But for the last two years I've survived on the fact that all this physics and math I was learning was really interesting to me. I thought I'd figured out what I was actually passionate about. But now my interest has waned, as it always does, and everything feels just like it did the last two times I tried my hand at college.

The sad truth is that there are only two "things" I've been passionate about for more than a few years: writing and the evil bestfriend.

[Lorizael]

Because I'd like to be comfortable financially.

[dannubis]

Then go to the ****ing class.

[Lorizael]

Then go to the ****ing class.

If you think a post like this is going to produce anything other than from me, you haven't been paying attention.

[Buster Crabbe's Uncle]

You really need to do SOMEthing about those classes, to make sure you get incompletes, not Fs. You're going to be doing better by August, and...

[Lorizael]

My options are (a) talk to my professors and see what I can do to not fail, or (b) withdraw from the semester.

[Lorizael]

maybe do some background reading on the subject with the time you're supposed to be in class?

I watched Cosmos. Does that count?

[Buster Crabbe's Uncle]

I watched Cosmos. Does that count?

I've heard the cartoons are a bit dumb and misleading, and that Neil Degrassi Jr. High Tyson is no Sagan.



But how can you not love Neil Degrassi Jr. High Tyson?

[Bereta_Eder]

Anyone who has "emotional issues" (sic) and smokes pot is like drawing a pentagram on the floor and inviting the devil in.

[Buster Crabbe's Uncle]

Agreed. Intoxicants of any kind tend not to be a great idea for anyone with emotional control issues.

[Bereta_Eder]

Especially pot (SAVA) is certified to accelerate and set in minor psychosis syndromes, nomatter the benign mythology that surrounds it.
It's a no-no.
(even if this is an unpopular view in some circles)

[Buster Crabbe's Uncle]

Any hallucinogenic properties at all are an especially bad idea, yes.

[Lorizael]

I've heard the cartoons are a bit dumb and misleading, and that Neil Degrassi Jr. High Tyson is no Sagan.



But how can you not love Neil Degrassi Jr. High Tyson?

Pretty much.

...

Anyway, my only vice is Mountain Dew. Means I'm not very fun at parties, but I'm also not very present at parties, so it all works out.