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As far back as junior high, I had pronounced feelings of lonliness and maybe even depression. I'm not sure what exactly caused it to get worse, but then sometime later, while working on my thesis and struggling to find a teaching position and working in retail, I began having thoughts of suicide on occasion (this was several years after significant other's suicide). Did I do the right thing to get psychiatric treament? Nope - I thought as long as I had some family and good friends I could talk with whenever I got seriously depressed, that I could deal with it with no future risk in hurting/killing myself.
During stressful times of uncertainty in my life, such as between jobs, or financial stress, my anxiety and depression gets worse at times. So about two weeks ago, I finally admitted to myself that I may need psychiatric treament and prescribed anti-depressant (hopefully at least low-dosage) and I made an apppointment. The initial psychiatric treatment for assessment or diagnosis is the last week of April.
Until recently, only about three of my closest friends have known how bad my depression can sometimes be; they even know about my past thoughts of suicide. I never disclosed the severity of it to my family until I made that appointment and finally told my mother. I have yet to disclose anything about this to my siblings (dad has been deceased for years now).
I have no idea what pyschiatric treatment is like first-hand, but from what someone else has told me, it usually will be combination of prescription and counseling. I guess the reason I'm finally facing this thing the way I should have some time ago, is because this has affected my social life, dating life, and my work. With the depression, I get lethargic, which really has hurt my productivity at times with work (habitual tardiness due to a little oversleeping, lack of focus on tasks, etc.). I'm hoping that not only will I eliminate any risk of future suicide, but that this will help improve my life over all.
But it does not help knowing that come June, my contracted position with Papers of Abraham Lincoln will end. I recently applied for graduate school again, to pursue a second Masters (Library Science) as I find a possible career in librarianship to be interesting. Right now, I'm enrolled in three classes on a non-credit basis. If I get approved, then I have to figure a way to finance my education - hopefully without more loans. The non-credit courses can then be transferred.
Is anyone here comfortable with sharing their own experience with this sort of stuff, or knows someone who does deal with this stuff?
During stressful times of uncertainty in my life, such as between jobs, or financial stress, my anxiety and depression gets worse at times. So about two weeks ago, I finally admitted to myself that I may need psychiatric treament and prescribed anti-depressant (hopefully at least low-dosage) and I made an apppointment. The initial psychiatric treatment for assessment or diagnosis is the last week of April.
Until recently, only about three of my closest friends have known how bad my depression can sometimes be; they even know about my past thoughts of suicide. I never disclosed the severity of it to my family until I made that appointment and finally told my mother. I have yet to disclose anything about this to my siblings (dad has been deceased for years now).
I have no idea what pyschiatric treatment is like first-hand, but from what someone else has told me, it usually will be combination of prescription and counseling. I guess the reason I'm finally facing this thing the way I should have some time ago, is because this has affected my social life, dating life, and my work. With the depression, I get lethargic, which really has hurt my productivity at times with work (habitual tardiness due to a little oversleeping, lack of focus on tasks, etc.). I'm hoping that not only will I eliminate any risk of future suicide, but that this will help improve my life over all.
But it does not help knowing that come June, my contracted position with Papers of Abraham Lincoln will end. I recently applied for graduate school again, to pursue a second Masters (Library Science) as I find a possible career in librarianship to be interesting. Right now, I'm enrolled in three classes on a non-credit basis. If I get approved, then I have to figure a way to finance my education - hopefully without more loans. The non-credit courses can then be transferred.
Is anyone here comfortable with sharing their own experience with this sort of stuff, or knows someone who does deal with this stuff?
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