Couple things here.Is this because you'll die while being content in knowing that you did your best to leave the world a better place than you found it, or is this because you'll be glad to be put out of your misery? If it's the latter then I promise to put you on ignore and never trouble you again, because that's one of the most depressing things I've ever heard.
1, please don't put me on ignore. Socrates' quote about 'unexamined life'. I might not agree with you, but I don't put anybody on ignore because I disagree with them. I feel very strongly that I should examine what I believe.
2, It has very little to do with Apolyton.
3, Johnny Cash once spoke of some of his visions of Heaven and how beautiful it is and was to him. He said much the same - that he wasn't afraid of death or heaven - because that would mean no more suffering for him here on this earth. I can't say that I've had visions of the same, but everything I have heard of heaven makes me long to be there and not here.
4, I'm not very content with what I've accomplished with my life so far. There's so much that I've wanted to do that I've not been able to do. So I'm very critical of what I've done in my life so far. I feel that I have let down many folks who have counted on me.
5, There's other stuff, that I really don't want to talk about here... it makes me very pessimistic for the future.