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OK... this is kind of loser sad thread from me (is there any other, well yes there is you stupid troll and never forget I can literally break bones with a handshake).
Now I've told before.. that there is this one girl that steps out of the crowd I really really really like. In fact.. I've liked her the day I saw her until this very day. She is the only girl I could ever see myself going for the long run with. She's the total package. Maybe she is the reason my standards are too high these days. She's beautiful (oh you should only know and no not some, uh we go out so she's pretty, no she is BEAUTIFUL), she's funny and I can make her laugh all the time (she understand my weirdness), she's super sexy, she is very intelligent and smart, she is (now) very highly educated and will be a huge success for sure, she makes me feel good and I don't get bored around her basically. I don't start the game where the attributes I liked in a girl turns out to be the attributes I hate her after few weeks. No no... We've been good friends in the past, I mean good friends. We used to go out a lot, and when 'friends' gathered, we were both there and we used to call each other too.
In other words, she is perfect.
The reason we never went out is because she was dating my friend. So.. there was nothing I could do. But I must admit we kissed once.. it was a friendly kiss at first, but we don't do 'friendly kisses' in here normally. We were out and she just grabbed me and said 'kiss me'. So I was kind of reluctant, but in my mind I wanted to. So I thought a little short on the cheek won't do bad, but it turned into real long kiss. It was the best kiss I ever had. It beats all the girls I had sex with, it beats all the masturbation super sessions, nothing simply holds a candle to that moment. I pulled myself out but not too fast. We just ended it with a friendly kiss note, even though it wasn't. Ever since I avoided the situation because I wouldn't want to screw my friend over nothing like that. And I kept that promise. I was kind of disappointed at myself for letting it happen in the first place, so even when I heard they had broken up, I wouldn't even suggest anything or call her or anything, because I would think time has to pass by a lot before I can do anything. I wanted to be loyal, even though I hadn't seen the dude for a long time either. I guess the history friendship tied me in my mind.
The problem is, I mean I know the problem for me. My problem is that I have never ever since getting to know her, I have never felt anythign with any other girls. Nothing much. Maybe sexual excitement that lasted for few days or weeks tops. That's it. I'm trapped, I can't think of any other girl, even when I'm with them other girls. I still haven't gotten over her basically. I knwo this sounds like sad loser talk but.. that's the way it is. I dream about her all the time and when I wake up, I already miss her.
The big huge problem is, I haven't seen her in.. 4 years. She went to another school (Uni) and I went to the army. It was kind of a.. natural fading away. I did SMS her two years ago, and she SMSd me back and we had a series of messages too. The last message she gave me was 'I'm at the place x', she was with her friends and I totally chickened out. Yeah. Me. Supercitizen. Chickened out. Why? BEcause I wanted to be perfect when I finally see her. I wanted to be at my very best, because I figure if I ever see her I get only one chance. So I don't want to screw it up! I wasn't prepared at all so I decided to chicken out.
Now it's been a while again, and I still haven't gotten over her. I don't know, maybe in real life we have both changed in these few years, but something in my head says 'well maybe not, the basics haven't changed. We can still be in the same frequency.. '. I can't just phone her up and say 'hey wanna go out?'... I don't want to sound like a freak. It's totally like from Crazy about Mary situation, except I wasn't like the dude in school, naturally.
I need to kind of prepare myself perfect, make something subtle, like.. I need to bump into her somewhere or something, but I don't know where she goes to... any advices? It's her or it's no one else damn it. It seems to me I can't get over it.
.OK... this is kind of loser sad thread from me (is there any other, well yes there is you stupid troll and never forget I can literally break bones with a handshake).
Now I've told before.. that there is this one girl that steps out of the crowd I really really really like. In fact.. I've liked her the day I saw her until this very day. She is the only girl I could ever see myself going for the long run with. She's the total package. Maybe she is the reason my standards are too high these days. She's beautiful (oh you should only know and no not some, uh we go out so she's pretty, no she is BEAUTIFUL), she's funny and I can make her laugh all the time (she understand my weirdness), she's super sexy, she is very intelligent and smart, she is (now) very highly educated and will be a huge success for sure, she makes me feel good and I don't get bored around her basically. I don't start the game where the attributes I liked in a girl turns out to be the attributes I hate her after few weeks. No no... We've been good friends in the past, I mean good friends. We used to go out a lot, and when 'friends' gathered, we were both there and we used to call each other too.
In other words, she is perfect.
The reason we never went out is because she was dating my friend. So.. there was nothing I could do. But I must admit we kissed once.. it was a friendly kiss at first, but we don't do 'friendly kisses' in here normally. We were out and she just grabbed me and said 'kiss me'. So I was kind of reluctant, but in my mind I wanted to. So I thought a little short on the cheek won't do bad, but it turned into real long kiss. It was the best kiss I ever had. It beats all the girls I had sex with, it beats all the masturbation super sessions, nothing simply holds a candle to that moment. I pulled myself out but not too fast. We just ended it with a friendly kiss note, even though it wasn't. Ever since I avoided the situation because I wouldn't want to screw my friend over nothing like that. And I kept that promise. I was kind of disappointed at myself for letting it happen in the first place, so even when I heard they had broken up, I wouldn't even suggest anything or call her or anything, because I would think time has to pass by a lot before I can do anything. I wanted to be loyal, even though I hadn't seen the dude for a long time either. I guess the history friendship tied me in my mind.
The problem is, I mean I know the problem for me. My problem is that I have never ever since getting to know her, I have never felt anythign with any other girls. Nothing much. Maybe sexual excitement that lasted for few days or weeks tops. That's it. I'm trapped, I can't think of any other girl, even when I'm with them other girls. I still haven't gotten over her basically. I knwo this sounds like sad loser talk but.. that's the way it is. I dream about her all the time and when I wake up, I already miss her.
The big huge problem is, I haven't seen her in.. 4 years. She went to another school (Uni) and I went to the army. It was kind of a.. natural fading away. I did SMS her two years ago, and she SMSd me back and we had a series of messages too. The last message she gave me was 'I'm at the place x', she was with her friends and I totally chickened out. Yeah. Me. Supercitizen. Chickened out. Why? BEcause I wanted to be perfect when I finally see her. I wanted to be at my very best, because I figure if I ever see her I get only one chance. So I don't want to screw it up! I wasn't prepared at all so I decided to chicken out.
Now it's been a while again, and I still haven't gotten over her. I don't know, maybe in real life we have both changed in these few years, but something in my head says 'well maybe not, the basics haven't changed. We can still be in the same frequency.. '. I can't just phone her up and say 'hey wanna go out?'... I don't want to sound like a freak. It's totally like from Crazy about Mary situation, except I wasn't like the dude in school, naturally
. I need to kind of prepare myself perfect, make something subtle, like.. I need to bump into her somewhere or something, but I don't know where she goes to... any advices? It's her or it's no one else damn it. It seems to me I can't get over it.
@ Pekka
.. I'll work it! Before the next semester begins, I will call her!
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