the great fight

[Bereta_Eder]

are there also pink ones? it's very funny to watch in mute btw

[Bereta_Eder]

as for me, I'm still not drinking. It's a decision. Also, grand theft auto happened (yes, I don't believe it but it happened) and I'm still not drinking. Coca cola, ice cubes, one lemon slice

[ZEE]

The Black Satans - The Satan of Hell (link didnt work)

Also, I never claimed Satan to be my Master, it is Beelzebub, Lord of the Flies. I may have done so in the past, but I was incorrect if I did. If some believe that Satan IS in fact Beelzebub (I am still unsure of this,) then I train under the "Beelzebub" aspect of Satan. Demons have different aspects, forms, and powers based on that form. Sort of like Astaroth is sometimes a hideous, bad-breathed, beast riding male demon, at others turns back into the Goddess Ishtar during a summoning or visitation.

If so, then think of Beelzebub as the "Mr Hyde" of Satan's "Dr Jekyll." I was warned early on not to mess with him and it almost killed me. 9 years later and I have passed the initiation trials and they consider me an official Shaman. I am now up to more advanced shamanistic summoning and mind training.

[ZEE]

as for me, I'm still not drinking. It's a decision. Also, grand theft auto happened (yes, I don't believe it but it happened) and I'm still not drinking. Coca cola, ice cubes, one lemon slice

Video Games and sugar/caffeine raise your dopamine.

[Bereta_Eder]

having a small conversation with whoever stole the car would do wonders for my dopamine levels...

[ZEE]

Oh you mean somebody actually stole your car?

I thought you meant you are playing the game. How the Hell did that happen?

[ZEE]

Day 11 sober. No major updates other than I was given very... pleasant dreams last night from The Demons.

The amount of pleasure you will get is equal to the amount of torture you will receive from The Masters of Hell depending on your choices, mindstate, and soul-energy. It it up to you for figure out your own path.

[ZEE]

12 days of sober which makes the medicine go down.

I am down to 171 pounds! 5 pound loss since I quit drinking. I just really need to cut my sugar and food intake. I don't want my belly to grow to be huge and saggy like Oerdin's lol!

[rah]

Congrats, keep with it.

[Proteus_MST]

..., I will give up drinking (and then I'll enrol in a monastery.. haha not really)....

Good ... monasteries seem to be bad places for quitting acohol, considering that they usually are places known for their wine and/or beer production

[ZEE]

On the 13th day of rehab and the good Demon said to me... and a partridge in a pear tree.

Went out and about yesterday, one of my fillings fell out recently and a part of my tooth came with it, so I got it crowned. They were so nice and gentle with me; no pain! Then talked to my psychiatrist and she said I looked fantastic, thin, and my skin is smooth and youthful. I am making good progress, positive attitude, and she supports my idea to lead some sort of recovery group, like they do in outpatient mental hospitals. I took part in one myself. I think my experience defeating my disease and alcohol and drugs and stuff could help people. Plus I will get paid! I will bring it up to my job councilor. I have no official training other than first hand experience.

My life is almost like a dream now, like I am another person in a different situation. Amazing!

[ZEE]

Beelzebub's recent blessing completely overwhelmed me at first; too much success and pleasure can be just as dangerous as failure and pain, if you do not know how to handle it. Luckily, he trained my mind very well for a long time in preparation.

As my trauma, horror, and poverty in life did not occur in one day, neither shall my reward be an overnight deal. I shall take it with stride, dignity, and class.

[Bereta_Eder]

yes they stole the car and it wasn't insured. you know what I do? Coca cola, ice cubes, one lemon slice. not because I'm buddha not because I'm shaolin. but because I don't drink. simple.

[ZEE]

Rollin' rollin' rollin', 14 days and goin', rollin' rollin' rollin' RAWHIDE! 2 weeks, baby.

"How long are you going to stay on Mars?"
"2 weeks."

Just woke up after seeing flies in my dreams, an omen that Master is watching me! He is with me in all things, the insects his messengers. There was a small bug crawling on my Tarot cards a few days ago, Master transferring some power to the cards! I know my place in life now. My proper mindstate and who I actually am. I am happy with it!

SO IS HE.

[I AM I AM I AM MOBIUS]

if you can manage to stand, during waking hours , try wearing a weighted vest
if your tired sore sack bothers you try cannabis
anti inflammation and runner's high
it's a wonder of the world^