My depression has officially returned, I'm not usefull or worthwhile to anyone here anyways.. so why waste my time here.....
You know in all the time I've been here, never has anyone wished me a happy birthday without me prompting it........ I guess........ I don't feel appreciated......
my birthday is coming in what is it........7 days... and I'd rather wish I never make it to it.........
I've lost all of my friends cept for people here that are more or less just amused by me and don't really care...... I doubt I'm far off.......
Yeah I know I'm crazy at times but I am a person after all......I don't mean ill will.......... least most of me doesn't.........
I've had good times and bad times here...... I just don't see the point of me being here anymore..... I'm just a nusance I think......
for the record placex (and you'll never guess who's going to do something there [not me, a nation] which I won't expain it if you don't know what i'm taking about is London...... so........ there you don't need me anymore....... I've done all of the good I'm going to do...... not like anyone ever listened to me to begin with.......
I try to help you people the best I can,,,, and now I realise that my most importnat friends the ones outside of poly don't stand a chance....... and there isnothing I can say or do to help them it seems.......
I used to have a full deck of friends, now I have ....well.........heh...............
My depression has finally defeated the anti-depressants ......... there is nothing my doctors can do I'm on the max dosage for depression on five different anti-depressants......... i feel bad and will for however longer I choose to stick around......
I don't like living anymore...... now I'm not killing myself just yet...... i might as well wait around for the fireworks....
when it all starts don't be surpised when you might not hear from me..... cause I'lll either be gone from here by then.... or I will be so deep in grief and depression..........that well the shell that is left of me wastes whatever else there is............
I'd say goodbye but what is there to say goodbye to, none of you like me anyways...... no one likes me anymore....... and anyone that ever did fades away.....................................
You know in all the time I've been here, never has anyone wished me a happy birthday without me prompting it........ I guess........ I don't feel appreciated......
my birthday is coming in what is it........7 days... and I'd rather wish I never make it to it.........
I've lost all of my friends cept for people here that are more or less just amused by me and don't really care...... I doubt I'm far off.......
Yeah I know I'm crazy at times but I am a person after all......I don't mean ill will.......... least most of me doesn't.........
I've had good times and bad times here...... I just don't see the point of me being here anymore..... I'm just a nusance I think......
for the record placex (and you'll never guess who's going to do something there [not me, a nation] which I won't expain it if you don't know what i'm taking about is London...... so........ there you don't need me anymore....... I've done all of the good I'm going to do...... not like anyone ever listened to me to begin with.......
I try to help you people the best I can,,,, and now I realise that my most importnat friends the ones outside of poly don't stand a chance....... and there isnothing I can say or do to help them it seems.......
I used to have a full deck of friends, now I have ....well.........heh...............
My depression has finally defeated the anti-depressants ......... there is nothing my doctors can do I'm on the max dosage for depression on five different anti-depressants......... i feel bad and will for however longer I choose to stick around......
I don't like living anymore...... now I'm not killing myself just yet...... i might as well wait around for the fireworks....
when it all starts don't be surpised when you might not hear from me..... cause I'lll either be gone from here by then.... or I will be so deep in grief and depression..........that well the shell that is left of me wastes whatever else there is............
I'd say goodbye but what is there to say goodbye to, none of you like me anyways...... no one likes me anymore....... and anyone that ever did fades away.....................................
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