I just can't control my depression.

[Ted Striker]

Urban,

Thanks for the firsthand info.

So, what is the weather like where you live now? Did you notice a big difference in energy?

[Urban Ranger]

Maybe I just had a mild case. Whatever it had been, it went away - I spent some winter months in Vancouver several years later and it didn't hit me.

Weather here is cold - acutally just cool by normal standards, but we don't have indoor heating so it feels cold. Went hiking on New Year's day with my SO. It was a fine day except for the high winds and I survived. I am also doing all right in my MBA degree, so it's not too bad energy wise. Just mentally lazy

[Dis]

the only problems I had were when it rained for days on end. I think it rained for like 11 days in Virginia once. But really Virginia wasn't that bad. Much better than Seattle.

It's kind of weird. When I was in the navy, I rarely went to the weather decks. I often went several weeks without seeing the sun. This never really bothered me. I was so busy working, I never really got depressed.

The only time I got depressed not seeing the sun was when I was on land (or on the ship in port).

[Lancer]

Well, I was a ****ing mess just like you PH until I finally prayed a last ditch prayer full of the dispair that had taken over my existance. I wasn't going to commit suicide but I was going to shut down and give up. So, tell me to shut up, call me an *******, I don't care. Jesus Christ spared my life like night and day.

It isn't logical, I can't explain the ****ing dinosaurs, but I don't give a crap, I got my ass pulled out of a ditch and that's all I need to know.

[Solly]

I wouldn't go recommending religion to PH, Lancer.

[Bereta_Eder]

Originally posted by Lancer
Jesus Christ spared my life like night and day.

How?

Well at least He hasn't interfered with your sence of humour


But I think that is something that I will never understand and you probably cannot explain either.

I'm glad though.

Some of the happiest people on this earth are religious people who are not dogmatic. I've seen quite a few. A very nice sight.

[Lancer]

I got filled with peace, it's hard to explain. I'd never felt so good before or since as that short time. It wasn't MY feeling, I had no peace. I stopped praying and layed down on my bed thinking, of all things, if this doesn't stop I'll never be able to work in the morning, and went right to sleep. In the morning I had no more dispair, I was happy. Joyful might be a better word though out of use a bit. The thing is, any time someone brings up a really good and logical arguement against religion I think back to those few minutes...I have really no doubt, how could I? I try to stay out of threads argueing religion...it's unpeaceful, and so am I, I mean, who the **** am I? I figure it was some kind of cosmic snafu and there's a good guy out threre that really got screwed.


paiktis, there aren't alot of people out there who would have thought to ask your question...

[DaShi]

What! Are we still on about this? He's probably over it by now.

[Seeker]

LOL, I hope this thread lasts longer than the actual depression that sparked it...

[XarXo]

Provost, we like that you write here, we like that you exist, we need your opinions. Remember that always, at least, you will have yourself.

You're a part of Apolyton, and we caN'T be the "ultimate" website without you, we aren't the "quite near the..." one

[Provost Harrison]

Well I was going to bump this thread after I have visited the doctor which is next Tuesday (damn Christmas, I couldn't get an earlier appointment). Now for SAD...well the dull miserable weather doesn't help, but I wouldn't say it makes a significant difference - I have this summer or winter.

I haven't put anything else in this thread for a week or so because at the moment there is nothing to say that I haven't said. I will of course keep you briefed on any happenings, which can only start from next Tuesday...things certainly haven't lifted, there may be more difficult spots and easier spots, but it is still there like it has been for a long time...

Thankyou Lancer, but 'letting God into my life' is certainly not something I could do, nor want. My mind just doesn't work like that...

[Bugs ****ing Bunny]

Now I certainly do get SAD. In buckets. It's nothing like clinical depression- it's great brooding sulks that last for days. It makes me very irritable, and generally an evil old sod.

Tried a light-box, but it made me feel like a ****. Used Kava-kava, which was brilliant but the useless bastards in the government have banned it. I'm back on SDt John's Wort now.

[Bereta_Eder]

SAD is bullocks indeed as Laz characterized. At least to me.

I have lived years abroad on FAR less sunny countries than Greece where I grew up and it never did anything to me.

[Bereta_Eder]

And all the people were complaining and saying: wow lucky in greece you have sun.

but sun is in the heart (can i get more cheezy?)

on the contrary i have developed a pleasure with rain.

[Provost Harrison]

That is cheesy. Have you ever thought of encorporating 'sun is in the heart' into a eurodance chart topper?