I just can't control my depression.

[Provost Harrison]

The 'leaving Hull' thing is something I am pursuing savagely, but without a job somewhere else I can't get out of this place. Believe me, I want to leave this place desperately. I call it 'The Royston Vasey of British Cities'...

[Asher]

Have you looked into how to apply for jobs overseas?

[Jon Miller]

Originally posted by Calc II
Sleep works wonderfully for my depression.

And doing nothing except reveling in the fact that I am doing nothing for an hour helps my anxiety/stress/depression.

sleep makes my depression less out in the open, but just makes it seek deeper into me

it is not a good solution

Jon Miller

[Alexander's Horse]

Originally posted by Provost Harrison
The 'leaving Hull' thing is something I am pursuing savagely, but without a job somewhere else I can't get out of this place. Believe me, I want to leave this place desperately. I call it 'The Royston Vasey of British Cities'...

So leave - teaching overseas is a great job. I'd do it myself if the charges are ever proven

[El León]

Always remember to treat yourself at least as nicely as you do other people.

Being depressed may not be such an absurd thing - look around, we live in a very messy world. I find people who can cope with it "normally" to be quite abnormal.

But I think it is sound advice to interrupt the process that is not allowing you to see much hope... The world is still an open book, and the only constant is change.

Travel. Try doing things you never do (positive ones, hopefully).

Meaning is in the seeking thereof.

[Alexander's Horse]

Look on the bright side - when you've gone completely round the bend depression is no longer a problem

[Provost Harrison]

Well sleep has very little effect to depression to me. Less sleep does little to effect my characteristics, not even grumpiness.

Yes, overseas jobs are cool too, but I have a lot of ideas swimming around in my head which are pretty cool, but I need to be able to apply myself to them.

[El León]

Observe. You WANT to do many things but yet you don't DO them. Why?
Be honest to yourself and don't accept easy answers. In fact, don't accept any answers for a while.

[Provost Harrison]

Because they have only just been suggested to me, that is why. I just need to be able to think about which ones appeal. On one hand getting away somewhere completely different for a while would be really good, but not yet. I would just like to get my life on the tracks, sort out my personal problems, perhaps make sure my financial situation is a bit clearer before buggering off (that car is expensive to keep you know, that would have to be sorted out as the loan is still worth more than the car itself).

[Alexander's Horse]

Originally posted by Provost Harrison

Yes, overseas jobs are cool too, but I have a lot of ideas swimming around in my head which are pretty cool, but I need to be able to apply myself to them.

Otoh you are such a Mummy's boy maybe overseas would be a bad idea.

Could you cope with London?

[Provost Harrison]

I could cope with London fine, just not the prices of property...

[Provost Harrison]

...and the hellishly long commuting. I'd rather live in Manchester than London for that very reason, although I do like London.

[Zylka]

I hate to see you like this

Get anti-depressants, immediately - they work. These will not flat out solve your problems, but give you a much better perspective and physical/emotional motivation to do so. They'll most likely have you on an SSRI, which helps control your seretonin levels (the chemical your brain shotguns when doing ecstasy). Each of the four SSRI's they might prescribe are very similar - they will generally elevate your mood and help over come social anxiety to a degree, but they also have subtle differences.

Celexa (citalopram hydrobromide) - A very neutral SSRI with minimun reported side effects, often used in bi-polar patients as it is less likely to induce mania

Zoloft (Sertraline) - The most offen prescribed, Zoloft seems effective to a majority of users. It is a little bit heavier of a drug; often being used to treat panic disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder on top of depresssion. A minority of cases complain that although zoloft helps deal with depression, it leaves them feeling inanimate and "robot like"

Paxil (Paroxetine) - The most controversial of the four, this drug either "works" on you or it really works on you. Aside from treating depression, paxil works wonders with social anxiety disorder. If you have any bi-polar tendencies, this drug will easily exaggerate them and you'll appear a very erratic person. Paxil really changes people, and they either love or hate it. In my opinion (given your personality) you would not do well on paxil, and if you eventually decide to stop using it, withdrawal is extremely difficult

Prozac (Fluoxetine) - Not much can be said about this SSRI other than its neutrality and the fact that it's ancient. An undercommitment to the treatment if you ask me, used by doctors afraid of todays anti-depressants

[Zylka]

...and the second on my recommendations would be going to the gyms, now. Nothing serious, just go work the machines an hour a day 3 times a week. After continuing with that after a while you won't have to start forcing yourself to go even more frequently. A changing physical appearance will do wonders, but the Endorphines will bless you - and it doesn't take long at all.

[Alexander's Horse]

Originally posted by Provost Harrison
I could cope with London fine, just not the prices of property...

We're suggesting you move not buy a block of flats