Problems with being a scared gay boi (at least for me).

[st_swithin]

The end.

[Elok]

Er, why did my post get deleted? This thread could probably use a bump.

[Thorn]

I have some deeper issues with my fear as well. My parents have made it pretty clear that they will tolerate me as long as I am not flaming, and that they strongly discourage this. I'm not independent in the least, so I wonder where this path will lead me. I don't think my parents would do it, but if they did cut me off, I would have no way to pay for the hundreds of dollars of medication that I need each month, nor would I have any way to pay for college, I would be lost......

Many of you have mentioned that I shouldn't be falling into any stereotypes. The thing is the closer I was to flaming were the happier days of my life, when I felt the freeist and less constrained. Granted everything went to hell shortly after, but I want to be myself instead of this vile thing I've been locked into...

For me this is like a second coming out for me, I really didn't come out at all in college, and have felt repressed pretty much since. I did go to a gay club meeting, but none of the associates I've met here (semi-friends) I know probably have a clue about me (unless I'm obvious?!)... so really I'm going to have to do this all over again. I'm lucky I live on a semi-liberal campus. But there are pockets of religious fundementalists and general asses that I am going to have to watch out for.

[Elok]

Well, who says your friends have to be gay? I don't know if you answered this already and I missed it, but again, have you tried befriending women? Unless you live in a VERY rough part of NC, they aren't likely to beat you up, and that's something. Other than that, try other fringe groups if you need somebody to talk to. Gamers tend to be very accepting provided you don't call them dweebs or trivialize their interests. At least, they are up here. If you don't have those there, try wiccans, or communists, or any other group who are generally regarded as whack-nuts by the population as a whole. People who get stomped on a lot aren't anywhere near as likely to push you around over petty differences.

[MrFun]

Originally posted by Thorn
I have some deeper issues with my fear as well. My parents have made it pretty clear that they will tolerate me as long as I am not flaming, and that they strongly discourage this. I'm not independent in the least, so I wonder where this path will lead me. I don't think my parents would do it, but if they did cut me off, I would have no way to pay for the hundreds of dollars of medication that I need each month, nor would I have any way to pay for college, I would be lost......

Many of you have mentioned that I shouldn't be falling into any stereotypes. The thing is the closer I was to flaming were the happier days of my life, when I felt the freeist and less constrained. Granted everything went to hell shortly after, but I want to be myself instead of this vile thing I've been locked into...

For me this is like a second coming out for me, I really didn't come out at all in college, and have felt repressed pretty much since. I did go to a gay club meeting, but none of the associates I've met here (semi-friends) I know probably have a clue about me (unless I'm obvious?!)... so really I'm going to have to do this all over again. I'm lucky I live on a semi-liberal campus. But there are pockets of religious fundementalists and general asses that I am going to have to watch out for.

I hope I was of some help.

[korn469]

Thorn/EVC

can't you move to a new place? also if you are at college and these people didn't know how you used to act, couldn't you just be the knew you without fear?

my advice to you is to participate in volunteer work, it's a great place to meet nice people, to help others, and to make some friends who are only going to judge you by what you do

[TCO]

Originally posted by Thorn
I have some deeper issues with my fear as well. My parents have made it pretty clear that they will tolerate me as long as I am not flaming, and that they strongly discourage this. I'm not independent in the least, so I wonder where this path will lead me. I don't think my parents would do it, but if they did cut me off, I would have no way to pay for the hundreds of dollars of medication that I need each month, nor would I have any way to pay for college, I would be lost......

Many of you have mentioned that I shouldn't be falling into any stereotypes. The thing is the closer I was to flaming were the happier days of my life, when I felt the freeist and less constrained. Granted everything went to hell shortly after, but I want to be myself instead of this vile thing I've been locked into...

For me this is like a second coming out for me, I really didn't come out at all in college, and have felt repressed pretty much since. I did go to a gay club meeting, but none of the associates I've met here (semi-friends) I know probably have a clue about me (unless I'm obvious?!)... so really I'm going to have to do this all over again. I'm lucky I live on a semi-liberal campus. But there are pockets of religious fundementalists and general asses that I am going to have to watch out for.

Get a job. Take care of yourself. Grow up.

[Asher]

And wear boxerbriefs.

[Thorn]

Well my first day being gay in college, and people haven't killed me... I haven't even got funny looks or long stares. I'm wearing my triangle necklace that I wore in high school. I love it, but I haven't worn it in years besides when having sex. I'm starting to feel really good and much relieved, it is a shame it took this long to get my nerve back again. I'll keep you'll posted... not that you care to hear how the queer boy is doing... but I digress.

You know funny thing is that the Rainbow Alliance at my school has more members then the Baptist Student Union... ROFLMAO.

[st_swithin]

Have a cigarette. Relax.