So here's something I don't think I've ever talked about on Apolyton. In 2003, when I had my revelations and decided to pursue this whole all-consuming telepathic techno-blob thing, it began with an out of body experience. I had gone into isolation for 5 weeks in order to, uh, find enlightenment, which involved a lot of meditation, essay-writing, and taking long walks in which I pretended different parts of my personality had different voices and then made them talk to each other.
During one walk (no Gollum/Smeagol this time), I was playing with the idea that I didn't really exist, and then... well then I was looking down at the top of my head as I walked through my neighborhood. For a few moments, I was a brief mote in the universe observing a hairless ape loping along. I didn't feel like I had any control over my body, that I was simply following along behind it because it piqued my curiosity. I also seemed to have no personality of my own; I was just a clump of awareness interwoven with the rest of the universe, connected to everything but not remarkable, because everything was connected.
And then I was back in my body, filled with joy and comprehension. The meaning I took from that experience formed the foundation for everything else.
But I did not really have an out of body experience. As far as I'm concerned, I managed to trick my brain into a weird state of mind that let me think things I wouldn't normally be able to think. My soul did not detach from my corporeal shell and go roam the universe or anything like that. I've never believed the experience was in any way supernatural or mystical, just a trip I managed to have without drugs.
Anyway, has anyone else ever had any kind of out of body or numinous experience? If so, what did it mean for you? Where do you think it came from? And what do you think it was?
During one walk (no Gollum/Smeagol this time), I was playing with the idea that I didn't really exist, and then... well then I was looking down at the top of my head as I walked through my neighborhood. For a few moments, I was a brief mote in the universe observing a hairless ape loping along. I didn't feel like I had any control over my body, that I was simply following along behind it because it piqued my curiosity. I also seemed to have no personality of my own; I was just a clump of awareness interwoven with the rest of the universe, connected to everything but not remarkable, because everything was connected.
And then I was back in my body, filled with joy and comprehension. The meaning I took from that experience formed the foundation for everything else.
But I did not really have an out of body experience. As far as I'm concerned, I managed to trick my brain into a weird state of mind that let me think things I wouldn't normally be able to think. My soul did not detach from my corporeal shell and go roam the universe or anything like that. I've never believed the experience was in any way supernatural or mystical, just a trip I managed to have without drugs.
Anyway, has anyone else ever had any kind of out of body or numinous experience? If so, what did it mean for you? Where do you think it came from? And what do you think it was?
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