Awesome, I'm now officially bankrupt

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[Provost Harrison]

Originally posted by Pekka
Yes of course. I get to do what I want as well, salary is the only problem. It will be OK but right now it sucks quite badly. I think I'll go for another free bike ride soon before I have to talk to my boss over skype about lots of stuff I don't get paid to do anyway.

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Hey, I've taken quite a meandering path through my life so far, and I've never quite hit my pace or managed to achieve my full potential. In recent years there have been glimmers of my awesomeness (), and with the SAP implementation project I finally found what I wanted to do with my life career-wise, something I enjoy, something I have a great aptitude for.

Academia was a mistake for me. I always thought I wanted to be a scientist but the truth is, it wasn't a good match in terms of skills and aptitudes. I always tried to figure out why I had such a brilliant mind but was never able to achieve academically. Because it didn't do it for me. Lectures, seminars, reading journals and textbooks doesn't work for me - goes in one ear and out the other. Truth is that thanks to my previous employer and their development that I truly discovered who I am...an activist learner. I need to get stuck in and play to learn at my most effective. And I never get bored doing this. And if it involves thinking on my feet and learning as I go along, all the better

My twenties were never really my decade, it was a lot of false starts and fumbling around in the dark trying to find my path. Now I truly believe I've found it - I have focus, drive and determination in what I am doing, and with the opportunity I have, the sky is the limit. I have been so excited about starting this job, and you know, now I have started and am getting stuck into it, my excitement hasn't waned in the slightest because my boss really is keen on playing my role to my strengths (technical side of SAP implementation, configuration and potentially even some development further down the line). And you know what, this doesn't daunt me in the slightest, it excites me. Call me a freaky geek if you must (but I just don't have the social skills and appearance to, besides, I look fantastic in a suit ) but that is who I am.

And Pekka, I kind of see this enthusiasm for what you are doing in your posts, you are just a bit frustrated with your life situation. Patience young padowan, as they say, as I am sure it will pay off dividends

[Pekka]

PH, thanks. It's just that I got a bad start as well, but I know I have my dream job right now. I've said it before and I say it again, if I could pick ANY job from a list, I would pick this over and over again, even with my bad start. Even with this money thing, I would pick this one. I'm lucky to have this. Really lucky, you know how many people can say they have their dream job and actually know it? As in pick from the list man... I got to do that.

It's just all kinds of personal problems really. That's all it is. It'll soon get better. It's just taking some more time than I expected and during this gap I've kind of let myself down and all that jazz, and it's disappointing and it tires me a lot but I've already hit the rock bottom and bouncing back. I'm getting a new start in June as I move to the US. I'm also glad that my boss isn't too pressuring, I haven't accomplsihed much this year. I've turned 0 versions to him, just saying "soon". He hasn't pressured me. He trusts me, if he didn't, he would habe prolly fired me, because i haven't delivered the things I've promised. Just excuses... mostly due to personal situation, but I haven't told him about those. So he clearly trusts me and my head so that's cool, plus I'm about to get back on track so I'll start firing. Oh yeah, my boss is in the US, so I'll be workign with him from June onwards, so it'll be the time to truly progress fast and I think I'll do it. I call him the rainman, because he is. We think alike, theory is never a problem to us and we both drive to have cross disciplinary knowledge, so we'll work just fine adn can fully focus on practical matters. He is opening tons of doors for me, I'm getting top ranked people to help me, like I've said the place was ranked #1 in research in the world. I got this position by saying I don't care, I don't even like you, I think this project sucks ass etc. Being the youngest and new guy as well... so I've failed upwards And he STILL trusted me enough, without me showing anything, to invite me there using his personal connections. There's a long line there, it's not like I can just march in. I was invited to work there. And what do I do? ***** and complain some more.

But it's due to personal problems really. So... when I get over these problems, oh man. Life will rock! I'm hopeful. I know this will all get better. I just can't burn the bridges now, I just have to keep being stable even if I can't move forward.

[Snotty]

pekka you should have got a girlfriend while you had the chance, women are suckers and at least you wouldnt be so hungry

[Provost Harrison]

Sometimes I wonder if it is because I have always been so self sufficient and independent that I haven't gotten anywhere with women. Ah well...

[Kidlicious]

Pekka, I don't even have much furniture. I barely got a car, and that's just because you really need one where I live. The buses aren't dependable.

Everything is fine. Don't worry so much. It just take some thinking to get by without things.

[Aeson]

Get the Fed to bail you out.

[LordShiva]

[Pekka]

I don't need money that much anyway. My rent is too high to begin with, I could live in another place and I will when I get back from the States. In fact, I can get any location with this rent, probably the same room as well. So that's only awesome.

I'd like to have enough money to do few things regularly, like get my gym card back. It's not that expensive really, it's like 30 euros per month so I'll probably manage to get it back when I get back. I've been promised a raise when I get back from the States. It's actually a considerable raise, 300 euros more per month, minus taxes. That'll actually get me by. It just sucks that I took a hit too early so now it'll take time to recover, but when I get that raise, I'll be OK. My salary is still very low, but it goes a long way in my books, that extra money.

That, plus I get bonus in States, so I get by there as well. I just need to ride out this 2 months first, then it'll start to get better slowly. It'll probably take me a year to get back to my normal financial state but I'll be eating so not that big of a deal. It still sucks!

[Alinestra Covelia]

I've been where you are Pekka. Best wishes to you and I hope you find the break you need.

I was a journalist in the most expensive part of the country for two years, while making practically nothing. It's hard doing a job that you love and doing it well, but not getting the pay you deserve. My boss used to admit as much to us, but he would say "If you're doing this job, it's for reasons other than money".

Well, after he said that one too many times and I ended up unable to pay rent one too many times, I left, got a loan, and enrolled in law school. He's still a great guy and I wish I could continue being a journalist, but economic reality will catch up with a body eventually.

You sound like a rational and intelligent person. Sit down with your internet connection (one of your final remaining assets from the sounds of it) and look for an exit strategy. What other openings in the industry use your skills? What are they paying? Where are these opportunities and how do you get to them? With any luck you're doing all this already, so little remains except for me to say I feel your pain, and I'm confident you'll pull through.

And if it all gets too much for you, go outside and meditate and stretch and maybe subject a few local asses to a severe kicking with your amazing cage fighting skills. Then go back and keep chipping away at your economic obstacles.

[Pekka]

You are not feeling my pain, I will kick you in the baby machine and then you know!

Ok maybe I won't do it. Listen, I took this risk and I'm going through with it. It' snot only dream job, but it actually pays extremely well once I'm done with this crap stage. That's why I also never worried about money, because I'm almost guaranteed to have a good salary in few years. But it will take those few years first. So I have to stick to my guns and wait this one to be over first. The quicker I work, the quicker I get to the level of salary I want. It's stupid, the gaps are ridiculous. For example my boss makes more than 4 times the money I do. Maybe 5 times. And then he has extra income on top of that. So he can't even relate to my situation. And he could make more if he wanted, so I'm looking that same thing.

I could make better money almost right away by taking one of them jobs from the industry. But I would not change this for industry position. I don't even want to work industry, I want them to be my client but I don't want a position from any company. I'm very free to do what I want and if I took one of those jobs, it would limit me a lot. So for now, I have to be poor. It's OK. I already know I wouldn't be any more happier if I made 1000 euros a month more. I never had much money so it's not like I'm in shock. But the thought of working couple of hours OT every day and still not making the bills, it just sucks. The thought sucks. And I have things I want to do right now but they cost, and they don't even cost that much to do but I can't.

Oh well. Maybe some lucky girl will come and have sex with my poor ass. I know I deserve it, but I'm not sure who the lucky girl would be.

[Alinestra Covelia]

Originally posted by Pekka
You are not feeling my pain, I will kick you in the baby machine and then you know!

Oh well. Maybe some lucky girl will come and have sex with my poor ass. I know I deserve it, but I'm not sure who the lucky girl would be.

Oh, that's simple. This is a variation of the old trick where you basically ask women on the street to sleep with you. 99 will say no, but the 1 who says yes is obviously the one to go for.

So applying that to this situation, just go round kicking women in the crotch in a friendly, non-judgmental way. The ones who respond positively are obviously the ones who are suited to you!

As for your economic situation, it seems like you know the risks and also the payoffs. That's good for you - so the only issue is the waiting game, marshalling your resources so you can last for long enough to get the payout at the end. Based on that the only advice I can think of is what others have already said. Get a loan, from the government or from the bank or even from friends and family. If your promotion and subsequent profits are a sure thing (just very far off in time) then try for longterm loans with a guaranteed payback time of 4 to 5 years. If you've got friends who are willing to agree to that and who trust you decently it should be just like a government or state/local bond, except faster.

Oh, I also volunteered you for nude Grecian wrestling with Lorizael in another thread. Apparently Lori is going to "lick you in the ring", whatever that means.