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... or broke.
My balance just reached total 0, fortunately my credit is good, though it is on negative, because I had to go and buy food so I can like survive and stuff. Good thing my rent includes internet connection. Can't afford electricity, already got a second notification to pay that bill. They won't cut it off, they'll just send the bill to collector company who will put their own price on top of the actual bill, horrendous interest rate and very short time to pay or I will lose my credit (and everything here is based upon credit, don't have it? Can't even have a phone then. Or anything else for that matter.
I had took a hit when I moved here, and I didn't get my raise on time. My raise was also such a ****ing insult, that it basically set me back and now I'm bankrupt. Hey, I still work, isn't that funny? I work OT a lot, but I don't get paid for OT. But I have to, since this is the type of job (research) that unless you don't do OT, oh well, you're not going anywhere.
So now I'm down to bare essentials. I've got nothing to sell really, except my television. It's a cool thing to work hard and actually go broke during, because the salary is so low. No matter, I still love my job. Too bad it doesn't pay right now. It'll start to pay in a year or so, but I already went broke. I told PM about it, since I've had trouble sleeping and other problems, that I'm pretty close to the edge and basically if it's free, I still might no afford it. That's how poor I am at the moment. Oh yeah and what did he say? "That's horrible. Maybe you should see a doctor about this?". Yeah, I need a doctor to pay my bills and food. That's exactly what I need? His other suggestions "this is a lot of stress and I understand it, you are more important to me than this research so if you want to take sick leave, please don't be afraid to take it." Yes, I need sick leave, because that'll settle my financial state. No *******, give me a raise that isn't a joke! No money situation can be fixed with money, not with sick leave.
It sucks because I've done this before, but at least then I was a student. At least then I didn't have to work hard. Now I do and look where it gets me. Nowhere. I'm afraid because I'm moving to the US in June and sure I'll survive there since I get extra money because it's a work assignment abroad. But you know how embarrasing it is, I have to resign my current place soon and then I'll be de facto homeless with no money. Sure, highly educated, sure. But homeless and without money.
So that will still cost me. Moving there will still cost me. I have to get my stuff and store it for my 6 month trip, and I can't afford it. If it costs 100 euros, I can't afford it. I had a haircut settled for Tuesday, but I can't afford it so I cancelled it. I can't afford eating at work, even though it's cheap. But I can't afford it. I still get student discount, but I can't afford it, so I'll go without lunch for a week at least. I have macaroni at home, so I just eat that when I get home and do things that are free, like... take pictures of my walls.
I need new clothes for the trip, can't afford it. I can't even get a ****ing haircut. I can't afford any new surprise, I can't pay my phone bill that is coming up, I can't pay my bills. It's not like I've spent any money. BUt had a mandatory thing that set me back and I had no savings so it took everything I had.
It kind of sucks to say to someone settling my trip that "does it cost?". These people all have money, so they're like noo noo, but if it costs 20 euros, listen, I can't afford it. They don't get it. No one gets it that when yous ay I have no money, it literally means NO MONEY. I don't want to sell my books either so... or my furniture. That would be too sad, I'll just not eat and not do anything. Luckily breathing is free
Oh yeah, I don't know how to survive in the US, because I'll be there 3 whole weeks before my first pay day. That'll be fun. I guess I'll not eat there as well. You know, I can't even get a sandwich at the airports and because oyu can't bring any liquids, I guess I'll be drinking at the luxurious bathroom area where the water flows free.
Sometimes it really doesn't pay to work. If I had to take a bus to work, I couldn't afford it.
Yay me.
My balance just reached total 0, fortunately my credit is good, though it is on negative, because I had to go and buy food so I can like survive and stuff. Good thing my rent includes internet connection. Can't afford electricity, already got a second notification to pay that bill. They won't cut it off, they'll just send the bill to collector company who will put their own price on top of the actual bill, horrendous interest rate and very short time to pay or I will lose my credit (and everything here is based upon credit, don't have it? Can't even have a phone then. Or anything else for that matter.
I had took a hit when I moved here, and I didn't get my raise on time. My raise was also such a ****ing insult, that it basically set me back and now I'm bankrupt. Hey, I still work, isn't that funny? I work OT a lot, but I don't get paid for OT. But I have to, since this is the type of job (research) that unless you don't do OT, oh well, you're not going anywhere.
So now I'm down to bare essentials. I've got nothing to sell really, except my television. It's a cool thing to work hard and actually go broke during, because the salary is so low. No matter, I still love my job. Too bad it doesn't pay right now. It'll start to pay in a year or so, but I already went broke. I told PM about it, since I've had trouble sleeping and other problems, that I'm pretty close to the edge and basically if it's free, I still might no afford it. That's how poor I am at the moment. Oh yeah and what did he say? "That's horrible. Maybe you should see a doctor about this?". Yeah, I need a doctor to pay my bills and food. That's exactly what I need? His other suggestions "this is a lot of stress and I understand it, you are more important to me than this research so if you want to take sick leave, please don't be afraid to take it." Yes, I need sick leave, because that'll settle my financial state. No *******, give me a raise that isn't a joke! No money situation can be fixed with money, not with sick leave.
It sucks because I've done this before, but at least then I was a student. At least then I didn't have to work hard. Now I do and look where it gets me. Nowhere. I'm afraid because I'm moving to the US in June and sure I'll survive there since I get extra money because it's a work assignment abroad. But you know how embarrasing it is, I have to resign my current place soon and then I'll be de facto homeless with no money. Sure, highly educated, sure. But homeless and without money.
So that will still cost me. Moving there will still cost me. I have to get my stuff and store it for my 6 month trip, and I can't afford it. If it costs 100 euros, I can't afford it. I had a haircut settled for Tuesday, but I can't afford it so I cancelled it. I can't afford eating at work, even though it's cheap. But I can't afford it. I still get student discount, but I can't afford it, so I'll go without lunch for a week at least. I have macaroni at home, so I just eat that when I get home and do things that are free, like... take pictures of my walls.
I need new clothes for the trip, can't afford it. I can't even get a ****ing haircut. I can't afford any new surprise, I can't pay my phone bill that is coming up, I can't pay my bills. It's not like I've spent any money. BUt had a mandatory thing that set me back and I had no savings so it took everything I had.
It kind of sucks to say to someone settling my trip that "does it cost?". These people all have money, so they're like noo noo, but if it costs 20 euros, listen, I can't afford it. They don't get it. No one gets it that when yous ay I have no money, it literally means NO MONEY. I don't want to sell my books either so... or my furniture. That would be too sad, I'll just not eat and not do anything. Luckily breathing is free
Oh yeah, I don't know how to survive in the US, because I'll be there 3 whole weeks before my first pay day. That'll be fun. I guess I'll not eat there as well. You know, I can't even get a sandwich at the airports and because oyu can't bring any liquids, I guess I'll be drinking at the luxurious bathroom area where the water flows free.
Sometimes it really doesn't pay to work. If I had to take a bus to work, I couldn't afford it.
Yay me.
ACK!
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