Is there an explanation for my grudge?

[Winston]

Them nuggets ain't gonna buy you no drinks around here, Stranger.

The stage coach leaves at one.

[SlowwHand]

Winston, were you born in Texas and then moved?

[Kidlicious]

Originally posted by SlowwHand
Winston, were you born in Texas and then moved?

Why would anyone do that?

[Berzerker]

apostate

Pekka is mad at the guy because his rude behavior induced a bad public reaction from Pekka... Forgiving yourself is harder than forgiving others sometimes.

[SlowwHand]

Originally posted by Kidicious


Why would anyone do that?

Not moved as in willingly. Obviously someone would have to have moved him.

And Berz, that's very true. The slightest mistake I might make just kills me. It's excruciating at times.

[Kidlicious]

Originally posted by SlowwHand
Not moved as in willingly. Obviously someone would have to have moved him.

OMG teh Commies!

[Winston]

Originally posted by SlowwHand
Winston, were you born in Texas and then moved?

Since this happened in Estonia, I thought the parallel was fitting.

[East Street Trader]

Its nothing more than the way the brain works. Random incidents do sometimes pop into your head for no good reason.

Happily, in this context, memory will change for you over time. At the moment you are young enough so that your memory is not very full. As the number of things stored in the memory expands it will behave a little differently.

[Pekka]

Oh I'm not upset about how I behaved, even though it was out of the ordinary. On the contrary, I regret that I did't stab her in the face.

[Provost Harrison]

You could just take your custom elsewhere, yes?

[Berzerker]

I regret that I did't stab her in the face

You have issues

[Kidlicious]

Originally posted by Pekka
Oh I'm not upset about how I behaved, even though it was out of the ordinary. On the contrary, I regret that I did't stab her in the face.

You regret obsessing about it though, right. That's your behavior you want to change.

[Pekka]

Kid, yeah. Because it wouldn't be a problem if I didn't think about it, and there's nothing to think about it because it's not a big deal. But if rationalizing the situation doesn't make it any better, then the problem is somewhere else.

[Lorizael]

Pekka, I empathize with you. The way my memory works, I tend not to remember how I felt about a thing, I just feel the way I felt all over again. Unfortunately, most of the time this comes up when I remember a time when I was embarrassed. Embarrassed or angry. And most of the angry moments have to do with my brother. Grr.

[Kidlicious]

Originally posted by Pekka
Kid, yeah. Because it wouldn't be a problem if I didn't think about it, and there's nothing to think about it because it's not a big deal. But if rationalizing the situation doesn't make it any better, then the problem is somewhere else.

Not thinking about it might not be possible. That means you don't have control over it, that you are powerless. Feeling powerless over something doesn't help either. But if you can't stop thinking about the incident maybe you can not get down on yourself for being powerless over it. Just accept it, and then your feelings of powerlessness won't feed into your obsession.