Serious problems with energy

[LordShiva]

Seriously, stop wasting your time here, you have work to do. There's nothing anyone can say that will magically make things easier for you.

[Chemical Ollie]

[Chemical Ollie]

Getting out of university is much harder than getting in. I had a nighmare with bureocrats who I knew was not as smart as me, but used their position to keep me in place and justify themselves. But I got my degree, finally. And there's no looking back.

[Jon Miller]

He is trying to do several courses, several research papers, a thesis, research, all in a month. While the university isn't offering courses.

JM

[ZEE]

As always, this Pekka rant deserves the traditional...

[Blaupanzer]

Originally posted by Pekka
I told I'd be back, but I have lots to do. Still do.

It's true, he didn't say he was leaving forever. Welcome back. Short of ill-advised and illegal remedies (meth?), there's not much we can tell you that will pack 6 months of work into a one month time period. I'd say keep us updated, but you don't really have time now.

[SlowwHand]

Don't focus on the whole, focus on 1 part. Prioritize.
Pay no attention to the rest until you finish that one part, then move on to the next. Don't think about the whole thing.
Going with this thought, I think you'll make it. If you don't finish it all, it's the lower priorities that missed.
It's your only realistic choice. One thing at a time.

[SpencerH]

One word, Kaffe! and lots of it. You're young your heart can take it. I'm older, I tell the ****heads I work at my pace if you dont like it **** you I'll work for someone else. HAHAHAHAHAHA

[Pekka]

Today's results were not satisfactory.

I have to ... smash my testicle or something to stay awake.

We'll see. I think I'll get a lot of things done this weekend, so I'm still optimistic I'll only have an acceptable amount of stuff running late. My thesis is starting to pick up again. My main problem is that I had to abandon my plan almost completely with the acceptance to the new job and the tight schedule. I had planned series of tests, but I can't do them now, so it affected everything.

Plus now it's way more difficult to score good points with it, now it's almost completely theoretical, so it means it has to be extremely good to have a decent score, and I need a good score, I need to maintain quality, because this thesis will be followed by the dissertation almost directly so... I can't have a crappy foundation. Plus they expect me to do very well. So yeah, it all changed in an instant and has caused me some mind problems. Fortunately the subject is something I know more than my instructors or anyone at the department so... I can freestyle it but I still need to get new sources because a whole series of tests is out and the analysis of it. That's what... 10-15 pages of stuff. It affects everything.

Even though I'm tired as hell, I'm still intriqued by the possibility of doing the impossible and the feeling afterwards. Undeniably a great achievement of super human level. Shiiiit.. I'll do it Just to shut some people up. Yeah! Let's get some hatred to fuel. I hate people! I hate them YAAAAA ADIEEEE DIE DIE DIDEWEE!

[Lorizael]

God, how I wish I were where you are, Pekka.

[Pekka]

Lori, I don't know if that's sarcasm or if you are worse off and would like to trade places with me.

I don't hate the place I'm in right now. I'm catching up my dream. I can't really complain about the situation that it sucks, period. It doesn't. I have a straight forward list of tasks that literally will take me to my dream. I'm very lucky. How many people really get to do that? I know I'm very fortunate and I appreciate the opportunity. It's when you can't ask for more, then you know you've hit it. When you're _excited_, I mean it's like Christmas the job you're about to do. SOmething you're passionate, something you read about on your free time because you're so into it. IN a way I'm getting a job about my hobby. And it just so seems to be that the hobby turned into a job also comes with very good opportunities in the future. I get to slam dozen things once, I get to travel a lot, I get to go to at least 2 countries for at least 6 months per country AND I get to CHOOSE from a bunch of countries!!!

I've said earlier that I'm so much into SEA, I want to go there. Now I can go there. It was like "would you be ready to go" as in if it's a bad thing. YES! You couldn't have come up with a better thing!!

[Lorizael]

I'm completely serious. I am just as freaked out, stressed out, and fatigued as you are, except that I'm not doing anything with my life. I wouldn't mind having a ****ed up mental state if it were worth something.

Good on you for having a dream worth putting this much effort into.

Don't kill yourself trying to achieve it.

[Pekka]

Lori, No I'm not killing myself over it and I realize that I need to take it EASY in few months and really just relax for some time and ... do healthy things and get things back on track.

So it sucks for you? Of course you're doign something with your life. You are alive. The problem seems to me is that you don't see the value in what you are doing, or you think it's not taking you to places where you want to go, so you see what you do as waste of time or worthless. It is not satisfying you.

So what do you really do and what would you like to do? We can settle this thing as we're settling my things.

[Lorizael]

Are you in the Kaiser network? I don't have any cash on me so I'd have to write you a check for the copay...

[Pekka]

Kaiser, I don't know what that is. I don't need cash. I need you to tell me where you are now in terms of work and life and where would you like to be and why.