For once, I never get to talk to other gay people on this forum they ignore me most of the time... I'm the outcast (of course I am everywhere else and for every other reason, but still). I just want a good friendly chat, I feel like I am totally left out of the community (perhaps for good reason?)
I've had a boyfriend now for a year and a half (how he can tolerate me is beyond me)... he posted here as Poisen Flower, but you all mistreated him so he won't come back, besides his opinion of the people here is quite negative, might even offend a lot of you.
I guess I'm still bisexual, though I've never been with a girl or pushed for it. I think all of their traits up until their vagina are sexually attractive. Still a hot guy will sexually attract me way more than a hot girl. I label myself as gay, some people don't like me doing that... but as I don't ever plan to be with a girl unless a guy really hurts me to the point that I can't stand them anymore I don't see what the problem is with my termonology. I think the label bi just makes me drawn further away from the community. I give off both male and female pheremones... but my behavior generally doesn't register on many people's gaydar at all. And I always have an extremely hostile standoffish facial expression and stance.
Some people would say that I am crazy as I suffer from some diagnosed pretty serious disorders, but really I'm more eccentric then anything else. I'm nice to people if they are nice to me first.
I'm really not such a bad guy, I dunno why people can dislike me so much. I've got issues, I deal with them, so no one gets hurt, just some disruption. I'm weird, but is that any reason to be hostile or avoid me? (eh Orange?)
And I have a great sense of humor, sometimes quite twisted. When I laugh is about the only time I smile though. I'm really not to say fearful of people, but I've been mistreated so much that I'd rather pick and choose who I interact with.
My biggest fault is probably my anger management, it is not really good, and I can blow up quite easily. I don't mean to, but it just happens.
Another poster with a temper is Fez (Giancarlo)... he manages his anger differently and is liable to stop talking to some one when he gets angry. It is hard for me to talk to him, my views often conflict with his, and we end up in arguements. He hasn't come online in days ever since I linked him to my Anti-Bush document. His father is in government, so he takes and criticism of the goverment quite personally. I miss talking to him, we share interests, even though we are about at each others throats if we get into a debate. He got banned but he is so mad that I don't think he even lurks here on Apolyton anymore. It is very interesting to read things from unusual perspectives, so its quite a shame. I did have a thing for him, it just didn't work out (for many reasons).
My boyfriend is a socialist so often we get into arguements about certain things, but always civily. He is very patient, I don't think he could stand me if he wasn't. I'm much indebted to him. When I needed someone the most, when I had no one, he was there for me, and he stuck through the worst that I went through with me. He's fallen on bad times himself, so things have kinda reversed. I just hope it continues to work out, because sometimes it seem clear that it won't.
I'm interested in other Apolytoners relationships, cause I don't hear much about them. I like viewing you'll as people rather than just written statements contradicting each others. I'll tend to be nicer if I see you as people rather than objects.
I'm sorry if my threatening ever hurts anyone's feelings or upsets them, most of the time I don't mean it, it just comes kind of naturally to me.
Anyway I wanna chat, a bit layed back please, you'll have plenty of other occasions to talk to the raving lunatic hell bent on destroying the universe....
I've had a boyfriend now for a year and a half (how he can tolerate me is beyond me)... he posted here as Poisen Flower, but you all mistreated him so he won't come back, besides his opinion of the people here is quite negative, might even offend a lot of you.
I guess I'm still bisexual, though I've never been with a girl or pushed for it. I think all of their traits up until their vagina are sexually attractive. Still a hot guy will sexually attract me way more than a hot girl. I label myself as gay, some people don't like me doing that... but as I don't ever plan to be with a girl unless a guy really hurts me to the point that I can't stand them anymore I don't see what the problem is with my termonology. I think the label bi just makes me drawn further away from the community. I give off both male and female pheremones... but my behavior generally doesn't register on many people's gaydar at all. And I always have an extremely hostile standoffish facial expression and stance.
Some people would say that I am crazy as I suffer from some diagnosed pretty serious disorders, but really I'm more eccentric then anything else. I'm nice to people if they are nice to me first.
I'm really not such a bad guy, I dunno why people can dislike me so much. I've got issues, I deal with them, so no one gets hurt, just some disruption. I'm weird, but is that any reason to be hostile or avoid me? (eh Orange?)
And I have a great sense of humor, sometimes quite twisted. When I laugh is about the only time I smile though. I'm really not to say fearful of people, but I've been mistreated so much that I'd rather pick and choose who I interact with.
My biggest fault is probably my anger management, it is not really good, and I can blow up quite easily. I don't mean to, but it just happens.
Another poster with a temper is Fez (Giancarlo)... he manages his anger differently and is liable to stop talking to some one when he gets angry. It is hard for me to talk to him, my views often conflict with his, and we end up in arguements. He hasn't come online in days ever since I linked him to my Anti-Bush document. His father is in government, so he takes and criticism of the goverment quite personally. I miss talking to him, we share interests, even though we are about at each others throats if we get into a debate. He got banned but he is so mad that I don't think he even lurks here on Apolyton anymore. It is very interesting to read things from unusual perspectives, so its quite a shame. I did have a thing for him, it just didn't work out (for many reasons).
My boyfriend is a socialist so often we get into arguements about certain things, but always civily. He is very patient, I don't think he could stand me if he wasn't. I'm much indebted to him. When I needed someone the most, when I had no one, he was there for me, and he stuck through the worst that I went through with me. He's fallen on bad times himself, so things have kinda reversed. I just hope it continues to work out, because sometimes it seem clear that it won't.
I'm interested in other Apolytoners relationships, cause I don't hear much about them. I like viewing you'll as people rather than just written statements contradicting each others. I'll tend to be nicer if I see you as people rather than objects.
I'm sorry if my threatening ever hurts anyone's feelings or upsets them, most of the time I don't mean it, it just comes kind of naturally to me.
Anyway I wanna chat, a bit layed back please, you'll have plenty of other occasions to talk to the raving lunatic hell bent on destroying the universe....
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