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I don't have.
And it's starting to take its toll.
Whatever I have, I'll spend it. Then I'm OK without any, untill the next pay comes when I will spend it again, all of them.
Plus I don't "do" tax sheets. Well, actually I do but always delayed - and pay the fine.
And I still owe money to the tax agency. I could have cleared it all up when I got a nice sum of money, but nope, I go and spend it all again.
Is it a disease or something?
I can't hold on to money.
When I go out, I don't care, I'll always order whatever I fancy never caring about money or if I can afford it. If my cash card or my pockets are filled, that's all I care for. I'll provide for my friends pay the whole bill myself (they do the same if I don't have any money).
Not a thought about financial responsibilities.
I feel like suffocating when I have no money to spend.
I mean it's alright but I feel SO much better when I spend 'em.
But I spend them without any regard for the future.
I have never been denied anything in my life when growing up, could that be it?
Even though my family was not wealthy they always provided for me.
And it's not like I don't realize what financial strain is, I do, or do I?
It's like I don't care for the future at all.
You're young, go and spend it, as my father would say, but it gets restrictive.
For example I can't plan to buy something of value because I never know if I can afford it! (because of the money I owe to the tax agency).
Never ANY planning.
My money go to everyday things. It's not like I go spend days at the Hilton or anything.
Expensive drinks, expensive mags, expensive dinners (on almost daily basis) that's it, my money is all gone.
And it gets more and more frustrating.
But if I am to think that I shouldn't buy this because I can't afford it, I'd get depressed!!!!! I'll buy it and the hell with it.
I'm probably ****ed.
The way I figure is I prefer to not plan and have the consequences than just stop and think and don't give the money...
It all came to a point few ays ago.
I had a nice sum of money and it was EXACTLY what I owed the tax agency.
If I would give it in, I wouldn't have any debts. Free as a bird.
But what did I do? No, I put it all in my bank account and start spending it. And not only that. I refuse to check my account to see how much money there was left.
Untill the ATM says, at some point, that there's no more to give me (logical)
I refused to check. Like that bird which hides his head in the sand...
Anybody in a similar situation?
"Doctor is it bad?"
Anyway, in the spirit of the recent Poly confessions, that's mine.
I'll try and put some order in my financial house...
That thing with me just eating up all the money I should have given to the tax agency and refusing to check my account but instead just taking and taking it really scared me!
(But I mean it's MY money, I earned it busting my ass working, why would the tax agency have it?
Because I wasn't ok in my obligations towards it, yes....)
And it's starting to take its toll.
Whatever I have, I'll spend it. Then I'm OK without any, untill the next pay comes when I will spend it again, all of them.
Plus I don't "do" tax sheets. Well, actually I do but always delayed - and pay the fine.
And I still owe money to the tax agency. I could have cleared it all up when I got a nice sum of money, but nope, I go and spend it all again.
Is it a disease or something?
I can't hold on to money.
When I go out, I don't care, I'll always order whatever I fancy never caring about money or if I can afford it. If my cash card or my pockets are filled, that's all I care for. I'll provide for my friends pay the whole bill myself (they do the same if I don't have any money).
Not a thought about financial responsibilities.
I feel like suffocating when I have no money to spend.
I mean it's alright but I feel SO much better when I spend 'em.
But I spend them without any regard for the future.
I have never been denied anything in my life when growing up, could that be it?
Even though my family was not wealthy they always provided for me.
And it's not like I don't realize what financial strain is, I do, or do I?
It's like I don't care for the future at all.
You're young, go and spend it, as my father would say, but it gets restrictive.
For example I can't plan to buy something of value because I never know if I can afford it! (because of the money I owe to the tax agency).
Never ANY planning.
My money go to everyday things. It's not like I go spend days at the Hilton or anything.
Expensive drinks, expensive mags, expensive dinners (on almost daily basis) that's it, my money is all gone.
And it gets more and more frustrating.
But if I am to think that I shouldn't buy this because I can't afford it, I'd get depressed!!!!! I'll buy it and the hell with it.
I'm probably ****ed.
The way I figure is I prefer to not plan and have the consequences than just stop and think and don't give the money...
It all came to a point few ays ago.
I had a nice sum of money and it was EXACTLY what I owed the tax agency.
If I would give it in, I wouldn't have any debts. Free as a bird.
But what did I do? No, I put it all in my bank account and start spending it. And not only that. I refuse to check my account to see how much money there was left.
Untill the ATM says, at some point, that there's no more to give me (logical)
I refused to check. Like that bird which hides his head in the sand...
Anybody in a similar situation?
"Doctor is it bad?"
Anyway, in the spirit of the recent Poly confessions, that's mine.
I'll try and put some order in my financial house...
That thing with me just eating up all the money I should have given to the tax agency and refusing to check my account but instead just taking and taking it really scared me!
(But I mean it's MY money, I earned it busting my ass working, why would the tax agency have it?
Because I wasn't ok in my obligations towards it, yes....)
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