Who Is The Person That Has Made The Biggest Difference In Your Life

[Sprayber]

I've never really had any one person dominate my life. My mother raised me by herself but I always had my own identity and most changes I have made in my life have been my own. That is until I met Rebecca. She forced a lot of changes in me without her really trying to. For the most part I knew who I was and thought that I knew most of the answers in life. I always knew how to play things so that I came out somehow on top. Even through the painful years, I was somehow just a little smug. Oh I have always been considered a nice guy but I judged a lot of people. When she came along that all seemed to change. The resulting disasters and pain and her eventual death, tore me down to ground. The lessons I took from her about what was really important in life remain strong. The most important thing I took from my time with her was a strong dose of humility. I loved her with everything I had, and when she and the baby were taken away I was left with nothing. My priorities are radically different now. Some things don't bother me as they once did. If I care for someone, I tell them. If they can't care for me like I do them, then It's ok. I don't feel the need to act tough or pretend like things don't bother me because I'm afraid to show weakness. The simple things mean more to me now. Someone laughing at my jokes. Or simply bringing a smile to their faces. Things like being there to listen to their troubles. Rebecca changed my life. I don't like the person I was before I met her. I try every day not to go back there. I only wish that I could go back and somehow change the events. But even in that I understand that I can't. All I can do is to help the ones I'm with now.

Before Rebecca, I was only half of what I could be. She will always be the light of my life. For those that have kept reading this far, you may wonder why I'm writing all this. Her birthday would have been today. I still remember and I will always try to take a little time on that day to remember her and what she ment to me. Next month will be the aniversary of her accident, and then the next will be the anniversy of her death. My top quote is something that I would always end my messages or notes that I would write. I guess I havent let go completely. But she still lives on in my heart and the person that I am today.

I love you Rebecca....

[Imran Siddiqui]

[Drake Tungsten]

Jesus, and I was about to bust in here and say "Imran Siddiqui"...

[Imran Siddiqui]

No you weren't... now continue being sad.

[Bugs ****ing Bunny]

Imran Siddiqui.

[Drake Tungsten]

[Solver]

[Enigma_Nova]

Sprayber: Heh. Well I guess this was a lesson for you, but although experience is the greatest teacher it kills off all its pupils. (!)

Person (other than me) which has inspired the greatest difference?
It is not the experience but how we adapt to it that shapes who we are.
Based on that personal change always a joint effort between external stimuli and my own thoughts/opinions.

Damn this is a tough question.
There is no alpha. If I were to put it down to someone it would be my High School Deputy Principal, for both understanding and guidance.

One of the few people I can cite that identified my potential before ignorantly trying to change me.
Was I changed? Probably... but not without my consent. So long as my consent is present my potential is preserved, and I have to be content with that.

[JohnT]

Sprayber: Heh. Well I guess this was a lesson for you, but although experience is the greatest teacher it kills off all its pupils.

Sprayber, my condolences.

For me the answer is obvious: Laura and Sophie. Also my (maternal) grandparents and my father.

[Enigma_Nova]

Just because I'm meant do conform show upset doesn't mean that I will.

[Whaleboy]

[Sprayber]

This post wasn't meant to be sad, but I guess it ended up that way. The first year I was a mess for most of it, and now the second has come and is nearly gone and I find that I was ok for most of it. Holidays were a little rough. But I know I have a few friends that are around if I need them. I have three amazing people in my life that I know I can count on. They don't prop me up but are just there when I need someone to talk with as I am for them. With some well overdo luck, one of them will curious enough to step a little closer and want to move beyond what we have. Things are actually looking pretty good despite the somber nature of this thread. But the whole point is that Rebecca will never be replaced and she will always be in my heart. All the ingredients of who I am were already there, she was just the person who unlocked it.

[st_swithin]

Dr. Denis Leary, who told me to STFU and nobody had ever told me that before. I feel so much better about myself.

[Kuciwalker]

Al Gore, for inventing the Internet and thus 'Poly

[Inverse Icarus]

the combo of OBL + Bush will continue to change my life for quite a while, i suppose.