Tweet
Well.. it's one of those threads by me again, so skip if you don't want to hear complaining 
.
I just can't sleep right now, because I Christmas. Not the day itself I guess, but what it reminds me. You see, we used to have these big christmas parties every year with the family and relatives. It was always great and I always looked forward to it, even when I was 18. First, it was about the presents when I was a kid, then when I started getting crappy presents after not being a little kid anymore, it was even better because of the good food and enjoyable day and evening with the family and relatives. Good times. Peaceful, no stress, everyone relaxed and talking, smiling.. I can't remember single fight in any parties..
Then.. it kind of started going to decline. My aunts divorced their husbands, one by one. That created a little minus to the spirit, because it wasn't the same anymore. But it was still ok. There was still good food, and some of us left. Hey, more ham for me, can't be too bad!
Then, I noticed that there is always this *****, who created tension. Nothing too big, but little. She is not our family or relative, but we keep inviting her because she doesn't have anywhere else to go in christmas.. She has relatives, but somehow she doesn't go there. Let me say this much, I don't wonder why, she's a major *****. I don't feel bad saying it either. When I was a kid, she never gave me a present, a card, or merry christmas welcoming. To this day, she refuses to talk to me because she doesn't like me. Ok, I leave her alone. But she's like this with everyone, except the few ones she knows and the reason she is there. Well wake up, it's oru family christmas, so if you hate the rest of us, get the hell out if it means being a major pain in the butt, and frankly hostile against all of us.
Well, now that my parents got divorced, there is not a single person that is married in our family anymore. I'd laugh, but it's not very funny I think.. grandpa would be, but grandma passed away so.. but let's say everyone has noticed, that the christmas party is just what it used to be. There are no kids anymore, we have all grown up. Most refuses to sing christmas songs too. There is no atmosphere.
So what if the party sucks, it's all about the family.. but when that is broken too, well it's just me and my dad, with no christmas food, and no presents. Well, I can't afford buying even cards, let alone small presents. My dad doesn't know how to do that. But I don't blame him, I know it's uncomfortable to him anyway. So, what do we do? We don't talk about it, we all know it sucks major ass, and we check out tv for an hour or two and that's it, business as usual. It's a HUGE decline from the once big family parties that everyone enjoyed.
I envy all the people who can have nice christmas, because I hate christmas these days. I know it beats the christmas for the ones who don't have a roof on their heads or are dying in deceases and things like that.. but still.
So, after this long whining, what do you do? I mean the ones that are in the same kind of situation? I'm thinking of doing something, because I don't want to wait for 30 years when I have own kids and my cousins have kids so we can have a family party once again like we used to. What can you do by yourself? I was thinking of going to church, but what else there is?
.I just can't sleep right now, because I Christmas. Not the day itself I guess, but what it reminds me. You see, we used to have these big christmas parties every year with the family and relatives. It was always great and I always looked forward to it, even when I was 18. First, it was about the presents when I was a kid, then when I started getting crappy presents after not being a little kid anymore, it was even better because of the good food and enjoyable day and evening with the family and relatives. Good times. Peaceful, no stress, everyone relaxed and talking, smiling.. I can't remember single fight in any parties..
Then.. it kind of started going to decline. My aunts divorced their husbands, one by one. That created a little minus to the spirit, because it wasn't the same anymore. But it was still ok. There was still good food, and some of us left. Hey, more ham for me, can't be too bad!
Then, I noticed that there is always this *****, who created tension. Nothing too big, but little. She is not our family or relative, but we keep inviting her because she doesn't have anywhere else to go in christmas.. She has relatives, but somehow she doesn't go there. Let me say this much, I don't wonder why, she's a major *****. I don't feel bad saying it either. When I was a kid, she never gave me a present, a card, or merry christmas welcoming. To this day, she refuses to talk to me because she doesn't like me. Ok, I leave her alone. But she's like this with everyone, except the few ones she knows and the reason she is there. Well wake up, it's oru family christmas, so if you hate the rest of us, get the hell out if it means being a major pain in the butt, and frankly hostile against all of us.
Well, now that my parents got divorced, there is not a single person that is married in our family anymore. I'd laugh, but it's not very funny I think.. grandpa would be, but grandma passed away so.. but let's say everyone has noticed, that the christmas party is just what it used to be. There are no kids anymore, we have all grown up. Most refuses to sing christmas songs too. There is no atmosphere.
So what if the party sucks, it's all about the family.. but when that is broken too, well it's just me and my dad, with no christmas food, and no presents. Well, I can't afford buying even cards, let alone small presents. My dad doesn't know how to do that. But I don't blame him, I know it's uncomfortable to him anyway. So, what do we do? We don't talk about it, we all know it sucks major ass, and we check out tv for an hour or two and that's it, business as usual. It's a HUGE decline from the once big family parties that everyone enjoyed.
I envy all the people who can have nice christmas, because I hate christmas these days. I know it beats the christmas for the ones who don't have a roof on their heads or are dying in deceases and things like that.. but still.
So, after this long whining, what do you do? I mean the ones that are in the same kind of situation? I'm thinking of doing something, because I don't want to wait for 30 years when I have own kids and my cousins have kids so we can have a family party once again like we used to. What can you do by yourself? I was thinking of going to church, but what else there is?
.
Comment