It's been a while, a long while (about 8 years), since I have gone this long without getting drunk, or at least without having a drink of alcohol... It has been 6 days, and it feels, uh, weird. I think that I was always drunk, or never sober, maybe that is why I never "had" a hangover? I just got use to being hungover all the time!
Anyway, it will probably end on Friday, if not before. Halloween and all, I can't resist!
Though I must say sobriety is a nice feeling, a feeling of physical clarity... Yet, the urges are strong. The shaking has passed, and the headaches are gone, but still the cravings, the unresistible cravings. How I have lasted this long is beyond me. Perhaps I should of given up smoking first?
Anyway, I don't want to stop drinking all together I just don't want to feel these desires to get drunk, all the time.
The smoking would of gone first, but when you get drunk as often as I do it is not even worth giving up the cancer stick. Thus, the drinking first, then smoking...
Should I drink come Friday? Can an alcoholic be only a social drinker? Should I limit myself or just go balls to the wall or not all?
Anyway, it will probably end on Friday, if not before. Halloween and all, I can't resist!
Though I must say sobriety is a nice feeling, a feeling of physical clarity... Yet, the urges are strong. The shaking has passed, and the headaches are gone, but still the cravings, the unresistible cravings. How I have lasted this long is beyond me. Perhaps I should of given up smoking first?
Anyway, I don't want to stop drinking all together I just don't want to feel these desires to get drunk, all the time.
The smoking would of gone first, but when you get drunk as often as I do it is not even worth giving up the cancer stick. Thus, the drinking first, then smoking...
Should I drink come Friday? Can an alcoholic be only a social drinker? Should I limit myself or just go balls to the wall or not all?
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