Logging out

[Bereta_Eder]

I never made a thread like this in 20 years. (more or less)

Just wanted to say good bye.

I am resetting some things. I have had enough of poly being my drunken punch bag. I am pathetic here.

I wish you all the best. I have enjoyed our interactions. When I was heavily intoxicated I don't remember much.

I'm sorry for any offenses and I'm sure there were many.
I forgive any offences I might have perceived as such (hey it's poly - I'm pretty sure everyone wishes everyone the best, behind it all and after all)

It's high time I break that crutch and start walking without one.

Markos, axi, Larusso, Vetty, GP, krazyhorse, loinburger (rip), oerdin, bebro, serb, rah, ming, provost harisson, mikeH, boddingtons, echtelion, saras, dannubis, colon, az, eli, michaelthegreat, self biased, alexander's horse, bugs ****ing bunny, uncle sparky, proteus, aeson, mad monk, jon miller, kidicious, ben kenobi, lorizael, elok, sava, ahhzz, pekka, slowwhand, mobius, n3stor and the many others I forget their handles


I wish you the best of luck

[Bereta_Eder]

I was joking I'm not going anywhere, I'm drunk again.

I was thinking though

[Bereta_Eder]

Maybe stop enabling me.
I mean vodka and poly and the world dissapears into an inqonsiquential cloud.
Everything tones down and it hurts less.
Time flies. Solitude is simply there.

[Bereta_Eder]

I'm in this particular place where evyerone is gone.

At work, I'm alone.
My folks on vacation
No SO

for the first time in 10 years I'm utterly alone.

So I called up some girls.
Tomorrow I'm going out with my favorite one.

Here I am relaxed writing while ethanol alcohol runs through the bloodstream.

Always somewhere to fall back

[Bereta_Eder]

There are a lot of things running through my brain.
Like there is a fourth girl and she has written a book.
I took it to study it and it is chaos. Disorganized, one meaning doesn't follow the other, heavy difficult in-accurate word salad.

I understand every last verse.

And it is very boring.

She grew up in canada. No idea if there is a relation ship there.

[Bereta_Eder]

Guys though, I HAVE to log out

bye

[Kidlicious]

You post drunk?!

[Dinner]

I hope you get better.