Maybe she damaged you

[Bereta_Eder]

There are many churches in athens. And great plazas next to them.
Having money with nowhere to sped them (I should be spenind them to the kids I don;t have) is ok. You spend them on booze.


Sitting on a outside table. Great weather. A kid comes to take my order.

[Bereta_Eder]

Around 19.
Then his mother comes along wants to talk to me. She is about the same age as me.
She said she's divorced.
She tells me her life story
I tell her mine..
Her 19 year old son eyes us wearinlgy It dawns on me he could be my son. I shake my head

She says that I, having trusted, for the first time in my life, maybe she has done HARM to me

[Bereta_Eder]

Maybe I won't trust an honest woman now

[Bereta_Eder]

She's cute and she's obvioiuysly into me.
I go by the book my mother gave me. A good girl to marry.
Which is ****ed as a scheme. Really

[Bereta_Eder]

I'm having flash backs.
Like when I was staring oiut the balcony from the 5fth floor right out to the church from my grand parents house.
The sweetness in her presence makes me want her back or is it simply anxiety to go to work that wants an anchor.
Most frecking definitely the second.
The future solution won; be easy but it will be better

[Bereta_Eder]

ethanol restricts communication between gaba receptors. Which is why most drink, Also it ups dopamine and norepinephrine.
I just need to wake up and go to work tomorrow.

I am amassing a cloud of insects, like people, that I have no respect for and hence I want to squash by being great.

[Bereta_Eder]

That's ok about the girl. She was pretty but she was rich and without goals. I don't particulalry care for riches. Some others do. Not me. I care about values. Family is a value.

[Bereta_Eder]

It's tough that we're at work together. I didn't plan it.
The only girl I met and I am crazy about, she's married. She's into me but I can't do anything. I don't know who placed these restrictive morals in me

[Bereta_Eder]

A social democracy gives you SO MANY leave days. With which to think. Thinking is not your friend.
I suppose when the alcohol has left my body it's a new day, With many girls that are interested But non that fulfills my criteria. Which very qucikly erodes to "stop being lonely". This does wonders to your "don't" attitude

[Bereta_Eder]

I was always a fool to that french phrase. the heart knows reasons that reason ignores.
I used to recite it and justify EVERYTHING by it. No matter how detached from the "societal perfect" goal.
I am now scoffing at that phrase and yet, by now, it ****ing rules me . It's not a choice

[Bereta_Eder]

I AM the heart that knows reasons that reason ignores. Will has left the building

[seIf biased]

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[margosp]

Wow, dude, you need to calm down with your flashbacks and all these messages. I may advise you to try to use charlottes web cbd to beat this strange anxiety or depression, I can`t get, actually, what it is. Anyway, I hope that everything is okay and you would worry about your life situation.

[pchang]

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