Dysthymia/atypical depression

[Zoid]

Originally posted by AAHZ
if you need support Zoid I am here.

I have much XP with this.

Thx bro.

[Zoid]

LS, Riesstiu. I have a gym card, and I go there occasionally. Not as often as I should though... But as Lori says it's a buzz that disappears within hours...

Provost, I need to turn my life around. Maybe some fluoxetine or sertraline will give the boost I need to do that. To break the downward spiral. After all I have you as an example that change can be made to the better. It gives me some hope...

BeBro, thx mate.

DaShi, It's not such a bad idea actually. I've started looking into zazen and the way of zen. Not a week long motionless state but nevertheless...

[Saras]

Dysrhythmia

[Zoid]

They sound pretty rythmic to me...

[Provost Harrison]

Yeah, I've been doing one hell of a lot of time at the gym too...the huge weight loss has also helped no end with my confidence and mood.

[Kidlicious]

Originally posted by Zoid
I haven't had a steady job since I quit the factory in 1992. Just studying this and that, going unemployed and doing the odd job in between. No sense of direction or purpose. Never, ever seen anything through to the end. Never made a comittment and stuck to it. Feeling worthless and lost most of the time. Extremely low self esteem mixed with feelings of anger and resentment at other people for no good reason, etc, etc...

The main problem is self-esteem. Maybe you have some issues with family members that need resolving. Therapy would help a lot. If you've already tried it, maybe you just need to open up more.

Also, try meditation. Stop focusing on yourself all the time. Put the focus on the universe.

[LordShiva]

Originally posted by Kidicious
Also, try meditation. Stop focusing on yourself all the time. Put the focus on the universe.

wtfk?

[Kidlicious]

Originally posted by LordShiva


wtfk?

If you have low self-esteem you should stop focusing on your faults. Deal with your problems on a consistant basis but don't make a bigger deal about your failures than what they are. Also, don't make a bigger deal about your successes than what they are. Stop focusing on yourself so much.

[Zoid]

Indeed, I'm terribly self involved to the point of narcisissm. This has developed over the last year according to my closest friend. She's pointed this out to me before, since she thinks it's very frustrating to talk to someone who isn't listening. She *****slapped me good last night because of this... She made me realize I probably need to see a psychiatrist...

[ZEE]

Originally posted by Zoid
She *****slapped me good last night because of this... She made me realize I probably need to see a psychiatrist...

so thats what started all of this.

look, Zoid, i have been more than up-slapped by good friends. i have been seriously depressed, gang-beaten to a pulp, publically humiliated, overdosed on several medications, and sometimes all four at once. I have lived in closets out of fear of my life for weeks at a time. also more stuff i am probably forgetting. know what my biggest problem was that whole time? it wasn't the people that were hurting me. it was ME for screwing up my life to the point that i was in that situation to begin with.

I never thought i would ever say this in my life, but Kidicious is right. Now i live my life one day at a time, not worrying so much about what i am doing or what people think, or anything stupid like that. and because of this outlook i am living in my own place and sitting on about 5 grand. Not bad for someone out of the gutter-slums eh...?

If i am at work or out somewhere and somebody confronts me in a hostile manner, yeah i could just beat their ass/get my ass beat, lose my temper, quit my job, go to jail, blah blah blah. I even came close a few times to doing these things. But i know that in a few hours i will be home safe and away from those freaks of the world and those moments are just memories to be forgotten. And i get MORE respect for it from people i know because they know that i have a legendary temper that is extremely hard to control.

So, yeah, basically what Kid said, plus stop worrying so much about what people think about Zoid. Worry about what Zoid thinks about other people.

hope this helps. it helped me.

[Theben]

Originally posted by Kidicious

If you have low self-esteem you should stop focusing on your faults. Deal with your problems on a consistant basis but don't make a bigger deal about your failures than what they are. Also, don't make a bigger deal about your successes than what they are. Stop focusing on yourself so much.

I'll add that he should still note his successes. Depressed people tend to equate "don't inflate success" with "ignore completely".

[Kidlicious]

One thing that I do now, that I had to learn (or condition myself for) is not to hurry (as well as worry). I live in the moment but without a sense of urgency. I had to learn to do that because my perspective was all wrong. That's what depression is, bad prespective. I have other problems besides depression, but I think it's similar.

[Zoid]

Originally posted by AAHZ


so thats what started all of this.

look, Zoid, i have been more than up-slapped by good friends. i have been seriously depressed, gang-beaten to a pulp, publically humiliated, overdosed on several medications, and sometimes all four at once. I have lived in closets out of fear of my life for weeks at a time. also more stuff i am probably forgetting. know what my biggest problem was that whole time? it wasn't the people that were hurting me. it was ME for screwing up my life to the point that i was in that situation to begin with.

I never thought i would ever say this in my life, but Kidicious is right. Now i live my life one day at a time, not worrying so much about what i am doing or what people think, or anything stupid like that. and because of this outlook i am living in my own place and sitting on about 5 grand. Not bad for someone out of the gutter-slums eh...?

If i am at work or out somewhere and somebody confronts me in a hostile manner, yeah i could just beat their ass/get my ass beat, lose my temper, quit my job, go to jail, blah blah blah. I even came close a few times to doing these things. But i know that in a few hours i will be home safe and away from those freaks of the world and those moments are just memories to be forgotten. And i get MORE respect for it from people i know because they know that i have a legendary temper that is extremely hard to control.

So, yeah, basically what Kid said, plus stop worrying so much about what people think about Zoid. Worry about what Zoid thinks about other people.

hope this helps. it helped me.

Sounds like good advice...

[Zoid]

Originally posted by Kidicious
One thing that I do now, that I had to learn (or condition myself for) is not to hurry (as well as worry). I live in the moment but without a sense of urgency. I had to learn to do that because my perspective was all wrong. That's what depression is, bad prespective. I have other problems besides depression, but I think it's similar.

This is where zen can be very useful I think. To just be in the present...

[Guynemer]

My two cents:

As mentioned above, I STRONGLY recommend MORE exercise, and that you see a psychiatrist (or a psychologist at the very least).

I also recommend that you purchase one of those wide-spectrum lamps that some people use for Seasonal Affective Disorder. They do not work for everyone, but they CAN work, and it certainly won't hurt.