My dream came true

[Pekka]

Yes it's true.





The impossible happened. I'm not so tired anymore. I'm excited. My contract starts in 6 weeks, that means that I have no pressure from my studies, I'm hired and starting no matter what the status of the studies are since I'm only few credits shy, so I'm starting no matter what. Of course I'm still going to finish them all ASAP, because I'll get paid more when I have my MSc ready. And it's close already.

So I discussed with this contact person in there, and they have agreed to start my contract right then, plus they have already "sold" my research. OK, so I don't really have to worry about the research question or applications. It's been already accepted, pre-emptively .

Second of all, the bigger issue, subjects for my research have already lined up. My contact had a meeting with several businesses we cooperate with, and "there was very positive response and lots of interest", so I have a business or two already waiting for me. This means that I don't have to look for them myself, I'm being given interested parties into my hands, very nice

The problem for my field and my research was (YEs, WAS!! it ain't no more...) that what I do is ... what you might call ethical hacking and penetration testing. Not just this, but I've asked for more free hands. I'm doing "physical intrusion" as well, that means I'm coming to your location with a stolen identity, lie my way through and steal your **** for example. So... it's not exactly simple to get businesses, even though this is interesting to them, but there's lots of issues with these things. Now? they're waiting for me and I really get to do this ****!!!! YEAAAAAAH!!!! I get paid to hack and I won't get in trouble for it x infinity. And I get to do a dissertation about it as well. ****, I bet they'll get my CISSP, well not that since it requires quite a lot of experience first, but ... I'm going for the whole 9 yards, extract everything I can and make myself the enemy #1 for you information hiders. I'm on to you. I already know where you live. Yes!

[Chemical Ollie]

Supercitizen goes cyber...

By the way, do you remember that I figured out the exact location of the building where your current lab/office is a few years ago, only from hints you posted here. You thought I was CIA or something.

[Pekka]

CO, Sure. Elicitation is the name of the game.

Anyway it's not exactly a correct description that SC goes cyber... I've been cyber for years, when it comes to security, I finally go live and physical as well. I guess that's the real difference.

I just hope I won't make them too paranoid. I think I blew my chance with the former company I worked for and hoped to do my thesis for them about this same subject. They were interested at first, but as I continued explaining what I do and how it works, I mean they got paranoid as hell. I won't do the "I mean how do you really know who I am? You think you do, but has anyone of you seen my ID? And so what, it's a piece of plastic, go ahead, do a background check on me, with my identities you only think you know I'm clean and to be trusted. Sure, I might tell you I'm doing research, but you're giving me full access to everything. Exactly how sure can you be that I'm legit? This is the perfect cover, you do realize it? I might be doing reverse psychology now and telling you exactly what I'm about and what I'm doing, that I'm not legit and I'm stealing your information as a matter a fact and by exposing it, you won't even question me."... so those kind of starts rarely works out. Apparently they want to feel like we have trust. I've learned this. But I was only pointing out that you can never really know that much. It was a lesson, but they went all paranoid and suddenly they weren't so interested anymore. I won't make that mistake again.

I'd like to know if they checked my background after that and if I was in the payroll, because I gave them examples of different ways to obtain legit ID card from that very company. It was just a generic example as well, and they realized "****, that might actually work. I mean ****, there's no way it won't work". So they got all pissy about it. So they realized, that I'm not just doing a little thesis, exposing one vulnerability and with NDA it would be hidden and they'd get the thesis. I told them I'd most likely first get the employee phone book and follow few people, see where they live and re-route some of their official mail into their homes when they are on vacation because of an emergency I create in the first place.

It suddenly got all so serious. Well, those pussies weren't any fun, but now I'm all about business and stalking people. I think they were afraid to read the report, where I found so many holes and exploited them all that it isn't even funny anymore and leak the info or something. You need trust with this stuff and I'm a loyal person, I won't leak anything, that's for sure. But how do they know it, especially when I ask how can they be so sure. I won't ask it anymore though, I've learned it doesn't pay off.

[Pekka]

It doesn't really matter what I do, the most important thing is that I can't believe I'm achieving my big dream so fast. I get to do what I love. I can't believe it's really happening. I'm being honest when I say that if I could choose from anything, I'd do this. I'd skip the porn movie acting, leading the country, everything, I would do THIS. And suddenly it all unfolds in front of my eyes and becomes reality. It's not like I can just apply to a company and do this job, so I'm really excited that I get to do it for real.

How can I ask for more? I've planned my things for years and advanced step by step, but now this was a giant leap out of nowhere and straight into it. It feels so good that you had a real plan, you executed it well and you got what you wanted. I can be happy working. I'll wake up interested and excited, how could I not? Dream job. Dream dream dream. I see myself being very happy doing this. Happiness is here. (oh and it pays pretty well too).

THe future is secured for me. I won't see a light purse except for the next few years. I'll be well off, happy what I'm doing, I can't ask for anything more. Eliminates a lot of worries.

[Pekka]

damn it's a good day. Just figured out how to get one course out of nowhere as well, got myself a partner to do it with as well. Nice . 5 credits more. What a day, offers just keeps on dropping. I think I should ride this wave, go get a nice big pizza and watch the Alien-quadrology. Haven't felt this good and relaxed in a loooong time. Time to take it in, that's what I'll do today. I'll enjoy, that's my mission. Enjoy happiness.

Also, I won't forget that I got support from here several times when I needed it, mostly when I was about to go to interviews etc. Not that I can't handle them, but I get very nervous so you were able to calm me down. Interviews with high stakes makes me too nervous, I'm not nervous when I go there but before that, I think it's almost abnormal how much I'm nervous about it. I get physically ill. I get fever and stuff sometimes, and I never get fever or get sick otherwise really. Cant' sleep, I'm afraid that I'll get rejected. I'm not afraid of rejection per se, but when it comes ot professional stuff, I'm afraid of it. It implicates I was not the best candidate. It might mean someone else was brighter, and I'm very bad dealing with it when I want something myself. I can't deal with the fact that I would miss something I wanted badly, because I didn't have what it takes. I've been lucky enough to pretty much ace these every time, so the stress factor becomes bigger every time. I can't fail, or I'm too stupid. I can't take that. I have to work every angle.

[Spec]

Wow Pekka. You outdone yourself this time. 3 consecutive posts.

Wtf are you doing man?!

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Spec.

[Jon Miller]

Such was the only way you could get where you wanted, as you had lined yourself up an impossible list of things to do.

JM

[b etor]

[Pekka]

JM, yeah, it seemed like it was the only path to this one. It wasn't a real path to this particular position but I got a break so... lucky break at the right time

[Jon Miller]

Yeah, congrats!

JM