Bad day

[Pekka]

It's not ALL bad. This isn't too bad either. I did say, that I have a problem of not letting it go. I'd like to learn to let it go more easily. That is, when I feel like I've been done wrong, I have very difficult time at letting it go. If I know I did wrong, it's easier to let go, because then you can think positive, you can think that now I have to learn from my mistake. But when I'm done wrong, I just let it dominate my thoughts too much. I want to smash them wrong doers.

[LordShiva]

Or you can play house music really loud

[Pekka]

I could. I should... I guess it's the fact that I haven't had the time to work out lately. I like my routines and the two jobs plus preparations for my thesis work plus writing an article is messing up my routine. I don't feel good. I need to go to the gym at least twice a week, I prefer 3 times a week. I don't feel good, I feel slobby, it's been 2 and a half weeks since I had to go and do a crappy work out.

[LordShiva]

You should get on that.

I start feeling crappy if I haven't worked out in more than 3 days.

[Pekka]

Well go for almost 20 days.. and no sign for free time. This coming weekend? No time. Work and studies. It's all work and studies. Plus I'm the type of person who starts gaining weight fast if I don't work out. It's because I eat a lot mostly. So it's really crappy, plus I have this uberexpensive membership as well, like all these different kind of treatments, saunas, all kinds of nice things I can get done with it as an added bonus, and now I can't. I haven't been in a sauna for over a month, that's a crime.

The last time I consumed any alcohol? I can't even remember. 6 weeks? 7?

[Pekka]

Or what about parties? Last party I've been into was the news years eve party. Last time I hooked up with someone and had sex? That goes to the year 2006.

BUt oh well, few more months, then summer starts, and I have more time in my hands than during the last 3 or 4 summers..

[LordShiva]

No parties? No hookups? No booze? No gym?

I hope you're getting paid ridiculously well, or getting great experience, or something...

[Pekka]

I'm not getting paid nearly enough, but it's what I have to do at the moment. This opens me the gateway to a better thesis work, plus continuation studies, so I might go for the PhD track very soon, provided I don't get a dream job right after the Masters..

[Pekka]

This should be my China ticket so.. I need to hold on to it very tightly. The real value is in the future. Plus, things will be easier for me when the summer comes.