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How to describe me lately......... tired..... annoyed.....tired.......annoyed....and tired.
I can't stand current events, they make me want to scrape the skin off my face with my fingernails......... I mean its just................errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Then I come to read here for a while and I find a whole bunch of you being insensitive if downright degrading to gays........over various threads..... and that further annoys me.
And what gets me the most is its the self-appointed liberals on here that are being the most intolerant/intolerable.... I don't care if it is an attempt at humor its not ****ing funny.
------------ok so done with that part..............
As back to my pathetic existence, well court has been over since the end of february. My Boyfriend pleaded down to two misdemeaners because even without evidence the psychotic district attorney recommendation to the court was 3 years in prison FOR A NON-VIOLENT THEFT of MONEY.... anyways he's on probation for a year so I had to cancel my trip out of state, I was going to go up to Chicago to see my brother, possibly swing by and see what Ming was up too, so I could shoot a nurf football at him to express my displeasure at having a year round free pass to Mingapulco......lol j/k
Anyways my BF is in CNA school now, so he can get a job that pays enough to pay back debts...... which he has a lot to pay back relatively.
I'm on a new diet I'm trying to take care of my body for various reasons...
And I'm tired all of the time as usual just like the past 5 years......... to some degree it is better that I am tired so that I don't get myself into trouble, but still I'm not enjoying life as much as I would like to, and I let everything get to me........
That and I'm kinda tired of my relationship, its very stable, but its way too BORING..... I always feel like I'm missing out on something more fun, but then I have to remind myself that I normally put very little effort into getting relationships of any kind I might as well plan on being alone for the rest of my life if I was to drop this one, and the minus - outweigh any pluses anyways......sigh.........
That and I have to like pull teeth to get anyone ever to talk to me, so I'm bored out of my mind as usual.
I didn't know what to title this thread, I'm kind of agitable, and tired...... so I'm sorry if this comes out sounding like BLOG or something, anyone have any suggestions for me at this point? I'd love some free advice.....
Sometime I'd like to finish my degree so I can say I finished college, thats about it, I can't see a damn bit of worth that a BA in political science has.
That and I wish I had more friends, I've lost 3 best friends in the past 9 years (one died, the other two well disappeared out of contact, into the oblivion for all I guess)....... and I can't seem to replace them with even minor friends.......sigh.........
Why does everyone not like me, I don't understand, can I really be THAT socially inept.
EOM-
I can't stand current events, they make me want to scrape the skin off my face with my fingernails......... I mean its just................errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Then I come to read here for a while and I find a whole bunch of you being insensitive if downright degrading to gays........over various threads..... and that further annoys me.
And what gets me the most is its the self-appointed liberals on here that are being the most intolerant/intolerable.... I don't care if it is an attempt at humor its not ****ing funny.
------------ok so done with that part..............
As back to my pathetic existence, well court has been over since the end of february. My Boyfriend pleaded down to two misdemeaners because even without evidence the psychotic district attorney recommendation to the court was 3 years in prison FOR A NON-VIOLENT THEFT of MONEY.... anyways he's on probation for a year so I had to cancel my trip out of state, I was going to go up to Chicago to see my brother, possibly swing by and see what Ming was up too, so I could shoot a nurf football at him to express my displeasure at having a year round free pass to Mingapulco......lol j/k
Anyways my BF is in CNA school now, so he can get a job that pays enough to pay back debts...... which he has a lot to pay back relatively.
I'm on a new diet I'm trying to take care of my body for various reasons...
And I'm tired all of the time as usual just like the past 5 years......... to some degree it is better that I am tired so that I don't get myself into trouble, but still I'm not enjoying life as much as I would like to, and I let everything get to me........
That and I'm kinda tired of my relationship, its very stable, but its way too BORING..... I always feel like I'm missing out on something more fun, but then I have to remind myself that I normally put very little effort into getting relationships of any kind I might as well plan on being alone for the rest of my life if I was to drop this one, and the minus - outweigh any pluses anyways......sigh.........
That and I have to like pull teeth to get anyone ever to talk to me, so I'm bored out of my mind as usual.
I didn't know what to title this thread, I'm kind of agitable, and tired...... so I'm sorry if this comes out sounding like BLOG or something, anyone have any suggestions for me at this point? I'd love some free advice.....
Sometime I'd like to finish my degree so I can say I finished college, thats about it, I can't see a damn bit of worth that a BA in political science has.
That and I wish I had more friends, I've lost 3 best friends in the past 9 years (one died, the other two well disappeared out of contact, into the oblivion for all I guess)....... and I can't seem to replace them with even minor friends.......sigh.........
Why does everyone not like me, I don't understand, can I really be THAT socially inept.
EOM-
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