Motivation Yes Get Angry!

[Az]

getting it on with the girl of your dreams is a nice achievement.

[Pekka]

this is not girl problem. This is motivation problem .

Girl would only bring motivation to hit her in the mouth when she speaks up and demands human rights.

[Az]

hitting it in her mouth

Seriously, though, in order to have motivation, you have to have goals, and the belief that you'll succeed if and only if you do something about it.

Which one of those are you missing? it seems that both. I think that starting with the first one is a good beginning.

[Pekka]

Right, right.. I think you're on track here.. my goals have blurred lately.. It's not that I don't have goals, it's that I have too many goals. I want to do all kinds of things, not limiting myself to one thing. But it takes serious commitment to make it in one field. And this current .. the IT field, I'm feeling the goal is blurring. I'm good at what I do, and rarely do I even have difficulties with it but... I guess it's just boring the hell out of me. You know, I just don't see myself anywhere. Except the boss man. But I don't look forward to study some years more, then get an entry level POS job to maybe make it in 10 or 15 years you know.. be old and stuff.

I'd like to travel, you know just seen and experience.. I want to write, but I can't write. I'd really really like to write but I'm **** at writing. I know where I can dance and that's not the field I can dance in. I don't have talent in it. It sucks but it's true.

I just.. you know I like to do weird stuff. I'm like a weirdo in that way, I'm not looking to .. get a degree, nice job, nice house, nice wife.. I'm looking to do weird stuff. You know I can't describe you what I think is weird and appealing, but say, what ever comes to mind. Paint my body pink and run the mall naked. Before the guards gets me, I'd oil myself quickly, put a strap-on and dare them to wrestle me down. Just because it would be weird. Most likely, if I'd do what I really want, I'd spend lots of time in court houses, making 'the first ever cases' and the judges would either give me the maximum penalties or let me go, because they just thought wtf..

Yeah.. I'd like to .. write.. I'd like to .. do photography, I'd like to be able to paint but I really suck at that too, I'm just bad at handlign the tools to make that art.. I should master in any tool I should work with but I'm handicapped with those tools.. You know it's like a .. fat girl with some syndrom wanting to be miss universum. I'm that girl. I'm pretty good at things I'm not interested in. And the things I'm interested in don't pay.

So yeah.. you know.. I just.. I should have my own country. Make a weird country. You know, and that would satisfy me. But I can't have that now can I, unless I go totally insane and think I have my own country. Then again, look at the good sides, it would be cheap to be insane, costs nothing.

[Pekka]

and I'd rather go insane and be happy than get rich and be bored. That's just it, adn I think the realism of things are that I'm more likely to go insane than get rich. I feel like.. when ever I get serious and do stuff, people just are slacking off and not giving their best. They're just underachieving or stupid. Most likely just lazy though.

And when I'm off from that mode, you know I just do weird stuff. And no one gets it, but that's OK. I guess I'm bound to walk this earth without no one understanding. Then again, maybe in like 4000 years some aliens do get it and they'll probe me only to realize I was clinically insane.

What ever. Insanity

Boredom

[VetLegion]

Pekka you need to set a realistic, achievable, yet difficult and rewarding goal to get you started.

You need to increase your post count to Warlord level.

Word

[Pekka]

At this point I don't have a goal that is a) rewarding and b).. rewarding.

[VetLegion]

Look mister, you're not the center of the world, remember that. If you don't know what to do with yourself, six billion other people do

[Pekka]

That's where you're wrong. I am the center. Maybe if you spent less time being secretive croat, you'd understand it.

[Az]

what does he secrete? o_O

[VetLegion]

Pekka, when I start up a company to compete with Az, I'll need a Finnish subsidiary since Finland is a very important market. I'll let you know the details as things develop

[Az]

Dude, I've forgot more of my inventions than you've even thought of. You're so going down.

[VetLegion]

Dude, we're going to be the first post economic company. I bet you don't even know what that is, huh?

[Az]

Oh you are going to be post economic, alright, but you'll hardly be the first

[VetLegion]

Dude, I was going to retreat to countryside and write poetry for the rest of my life but this means WAR! What are you going to produce anyway? Chemicals? That's so 19th century. The future is in the post information economy.