I'm thinking of taking up smoking (cigarettes)...

[Thorn]

I dunno I just need something to take the edge off (my meds don't do a very good job in a pinch), plus all the hot guys I know smoke, I guess, I'm really a bit ambivalent right now on whether I should do this or not.

I usually can't stand people that smoke, but if all the cute available guys are smoking, then maybe I should, cause then maybe I'd be able to more then tolerate it.

I mean my relationship with my BF of 5 years is doing well comparatively to the **** storm that happened earlier this year (we almost broke up big time, and it was bitter and horrible), but there is a very distinct possibility that he'll be in jail for 5 years pretty soon (come february when the trial starts)... I'm just worried, I mean I have to take care of myself too, just in case.

Besides smoking looks kinda cool sometimes, god didn't D.A.R.E teach me anything.... oh well... what are your thoughts?

[Spiffor]

Smoking sucks. That is all

[Ming]

I'm a smoker... and all I can say is...

DON'T

[ajbera]

Yeah, it's a pain in the ass to quit, and the negatives far, far outweigh any perceived benefits. Besides, Ming will BAN YOU if you start.

[OzzyKP]

How old are you Thorn?

[Urban Ranger]

That's a seriously bad idea.

[Thorn]

22

[OzzyKP]

Probably a bit too old, but one of our members is 14 and has recently come out and recently broke up with his boyfriend. He lives in Asheville.

[Thorn]

I'm feeling kinda depressed right now I know a lot of you here don't like me much.... datajerk thinks my parents should have basically aborted me, in not so many words..... that was hurtful, I may act tough but my insides are mush.

This is the only place I've really felt like home on the internet, sigh....... I dunno.... I just feel really bad today I've had a horrible day.... I can't imagine anything getting better...... this week has sucked two cause my doctor tried upping my anti-depressents but it flew my other drugs out of alignment and caused me to get freaky and sick, so now I'm off the upped dosage.. and feeling quite sad........

I'm tough only when it doensn't matter it seems..... what a worthless pile of .... I am........

[OzzyKP]

We've all been there. Don't loose hope, things will get better...

[Thorn]

Yeah I thought they were getting better, then my BF got arrested, financial insecurity, and everything else and it was like I was hit by a freight train and blown out into orbit.

[OzzyKP]

Well if you want to commiserate with another depressed gay guy from Asheville gimmie a holler (not me of course). Just uh, no funny business or they'll trace it back to me.

[Thorn]

that was perplexing..... heh......

[KrazyHorse]

Do it. Smoking makes you look cool and older.

[Kuciwalker]