damn it

[Pekka]

it will be ranting, don't read further! FACT.

Now, as the days go by, I'm getting more anxious. Anxious to leave. I don't belong in here. Or maybe I do at the end, but right now, I don't belong here. I don't belong in the States either, really.

In fact, I don't know where I belong. Maybe I don't. However, this doesn't sadden me. It's just that I want to leave everything and go see places like Cambodia, Laos, Philippines, China, Tibet, Africa, New Zealand, even Siberia.

I'm not interested in Europe at all. It bores me. I feel Europe is the decadence of the world, while the US is the big fat kid.

I don't feel like touring these places for a while. Later, but not now.

Travel plans, no plans. Travel time, .. hmm.. from two months to two years? Who knows. I'm now starting to have the courage to just screw it and go by myself. It' getting closer and closer, I might leave when the christmas break comes, who knows.

Your thoughts?

[Seeker]

Do it now while you're young and thin. Fat men shouldn't go seeking adventure.

[Sava]

Cambodia, Laos, Philippines, China, Tibet, Africa

[DaShi]

Pekka, you've got the makings of a young revolutionary.

[Pekka]

Seeker, lol why fat men shouldn't go seeking adventure?

Sava, ?

[Japher]

That's true... just going to the mall wares me out

[Bereta_Eder]

tres banal. everyon e feels like that sometimes.

NO P{ASSION!

[Kontiki]

Listless with scattered thoughts? I don't think we've seen this side of Pekka before.

[Sava]

Originally posted by Pekka

Sava, ?

well, if it is adventure you seek, those place you are certainly more likely to find it...

personally, I don't think I'll be going to any of those countries (including the entire continent of Africa)...

well, I should say, I wouldn't go there without at least a US Naval task force or something

[Japher]

Go to the Philippines and stalk Lancer... and get a wife

[Pekka]

You can say that to everything. But unlike most, I feel I have the sacks to do it. It's not a desperate act, quite the opposite. I feel this would be something of... life changing experience, for the positive.

I want to see and feel and experience all the cultures and people of the world. So what if I can set up TIVO without reading the manual, without ever seeing the equipment to begin with (we don't have TIVO in Finland). So what if I can congure mobile phones, and create mobile applications. These skills are needed if you want to do that for a living. But I don't want to. I want to go out there, see places, smell places, take tons of pictures, read good books, swim in all seas, learn to surf, learn basics of few more languages, know what happens there without reading it from our news, relate, exchange, and then come back as a new person with all these experiences and knowledge. I would be much better with this, and this is the only time to do it.

[Pekka]

Sava, and that's why you will never learn anything new and valuable Go on! Fiddle with your TIVO!

[Pekka]

I mean let's fast forward a year. What has happened. I got some more credits, still not graduated but much closer. Went to few more parties where I got drunk, the same old faces, the same old drinks, the same old places. It's OK, but it wouldn't hurt to skip one year of this stuff.

I come back, and guess if I say I have regrets. I believe I have no regrets. I believe I'm much richer than I could ever be without doing it. I'd have so many nice memories, new view, tank full of new gas, new motivation, and Brains Full Of Ideas. I mean how much can I accumulate ideas in that route, TONS! If I'd religiously list them down, I believe I would have that one million dollar idea, one of them would be. Hey, maybe it would even help some of the folks I saw or something, since now I would know lots of things and the reality of it. I'd have tons of new friends, tons of pictures, journal full of good stuff...

It's totally worth it. I can't see the trade is bad, I'm not giving up anything to do this. I'm only gaining. Check out India, Myanmar (Burma).. Maybe even Maledives, Singapore.. who knows.. I'm lucky because I could do this. Most people on this planet can never do this. I could do this. Why would I miss this chance, when I'd be an old man, I woujld most likely say I regret one thing, that I did not do this when I could.

The way I see it, I can't afford not to go.

[Japher]

how long until you get your degree?

[Pekka]

I don't know. 2 years? 2 or 3. 2 if miracle happens, 3 is realistic. Then I get me mastahs of scienzia! But we'll see.