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what a total suckdom. I had a good run for many days and now I got stuck in the back by rusty blade of FU.
This coming weekend, there's bunch of friends coming in to the city, and they never been to my place since they don't come to my city just like that. But now, almost all of them are coming the same time for this thing.
Now, there's some other folks with them too, that I'm not familiar with. But not much. Say, like 6 or 8 my friends, and few others.
So naturally I invited them to my place. I was even ready to have them all stay in my place, even though it wouldn't be big enough. But I did offer it in a way that says 'no you really should stay at my place, period'. Not in 'I sacrifice, I wish you make other arrangements but if nothing else, hey at least I offered'. It was clearly 'you need to stay at my place'. They haven't even seen it, so I figured hey, I could have the house warming party at the same time, cool.
They all said like cool yeah sounds good, thanks, now we don't have to pay, hey that's right you live there, lol, coincidence, great. Several times we met, I always talked about it. Then I found out, that some of them are going to stay in a hotel. A little disappointment but I thought hey this is good because now the few of them can stay comfortably at my place. Then I found out, no one told me OK, I just found out by my own, that they are ALL going into a hotel. Then I called one of my trusted buddies, and said when he's going to show up, that I need to give him my keys so he can get in because I'd be working when they get into the city. I find out, he's not coming either. It's much cooler to stay at a crappy hotel. I know the appeal of going to a hotel with a big group, but it's not even a real hotel OK. It's truly a motel almost. And they have to pay for it. And we agreed I'd give a roof over to many. No one even bothered to let me know NO ONE will come. Now how is that supposed to make me feel, huh?
Then I was like OK, well, you should all come to my house warming party, the thing we talked about, we could have it early on for some while and then hit out the clubs or something and the thing they came here for. 'Oh that's right, you live right next to it'. No ****? I live in a small city, everything is next to me. wtf? If I was paranoid, I'd think they are avoiding me or something, but being like normal outside this thing anyway. Confusing.
I think they don't all realize how much of a disrespect this is to me. I was looking very much forward to this. It would have been a nice break, since these group of friends from my original city never have had the opportunity to visit my place yet, and we always talked about it too. Individually and in group. Now the shot is here, we agreed to it, I was even going to give them my keys in case I have to work some hours of the weekend, which I do. But they didn't know I have to work. So it's not like they are being nice and letting me have peace when I get from work/go to work, and then I would have understood why they did what they did. Now I don't understand. There's no way for them to find out I'll be working some, because I just found out myself too.
Well I talk to one of them and say 'well at least come for few hours when nothing else is on, just chill out and have some drinks or start up the night or something'. The answer is 'does everyone fit in', as in setting up the 'might not happen'. I was like 'yeah'. 'well.. I think there would be few people not coming there', as in the few people I don't know but they do. I say so what, bring them on too, they can come, doesn't matter. It's not like there's going ot be masses of people not knowing each other, just you guys. Then it was on and on about how little time there will be. ****, there will be a whole weekend and I knwo the hours too, so it's like who the hell are you trying to kid. I was still thinking well maybe he's trying to be nice and not bother my place, thinking I might work, which he doesn't know but still, so I say well, you MUST come, it'll be cool this is what we've been waiting for, and this is the perfect time, it won't get better than this. And it was like sures we'll see if there's a good shot for it. What the hell, a good shot for it?
It's like they're valuing all the stuff over few other folks I don't know who might feel uncomfy for committing going to someones place they don't know or some **** like that. I don't know what else could it be. But even so, it's really disappointment to me. I know they're still friends and all but.. most even childhood friends, the ones I've been praising here a lot.. well my best friends damn it. And now this. Doesn't sound like a big deal to lot of you but ot me it does. It's the most hurtful things I've heard. And it's not one, it's ALL of them. It's like everyone forgot I live there, and that they were supposed to come in just FOR that anyway this summer, and now they are in city anyway in big bunch, and now it's 'we have to see if there will be few hours maybe' in the middle of some day.
what the ****? And they know it's disrespectful because they didn't let me know. Otherwise they would have called me they made other arrangements. So it was set up so that I'd find out, and kind of be ok with it. Well I'm not OK with it. I feel betrayed^10000.
But I don't want to say screw them, because they are my good best friends. maybe I need to evaluate some things again but this sucks in multitudes. I suddenly feel extremely lonely.
This coming weekend, there's bunch of friends coming in to the city, and they never been to my place since they don't come to my city just like that. But now, almost all of them are coming the same time for this thing.
Now, there's some other folks with them too, that I'm not familiar with. But not much. Say, like 6 or 8 my friends, and few others.
So naturally I invited them to my place. I was even ready to have them all stay in my place, even though it wouldn't be big enough. But I did offer it in a way that says 'no you really should stay at my place, period'. Not in 'I sacrifice, I wish you make other arrangements but if nothing else, hey at least I offered'. It was clearly 'you need to stay at my place'. They haven't even seen it, so I figured hey, I could have the house warming party at the same time, cool.
They all said like cool yeah sounds good, thanks, now we don't have to pay, hey that's right you live there, lol, coincidence, great. Several times we met, I always talked about it. Then I found out, that some of them are going to stay in a hotel. A little disappointment but I thought hey this is good because now the few of them can stay comfortably at my place. Then I found out, no one told me OK, I just found out by my own, that they are ALL going into a hotel. Then I called one of my trusted buddies, and said when he's going to show up, that I need to give him my keys so he can get in because I'd be working when they get into the city. I find out, he's not coming either. It's much cooler to stay at a crappy hotel. I know the appeal of going to a hotel with a big group, but it's not even a real hotel OK. It's truly a motel almost. And they have to pay for it. And we agreed I'd give a roof over to many. No one even bothered to let me know NO ONE will come. Now how is that supposed to make me feel, huh?
Then I was like OK, well, you should all come to my house warming party, the thing we talked about, we could have it early on for some while and then hit out the clubs or something and the thing they came here for. 'Oh that's right, you live right next to it'. No ****? I live in a small city, everything is next to me. wtf? If I was paranoid, I'd think they are avoiding me or something, but being like normal outside this thing anyway. Confusing.
I think they don't all realize how much of a disrespect this is to me. I was looking very much forward to this. It would have been a nice break, since these group of friends from my original city never have had the opportunity to visit my place yet, and we always talked about it too. Individually and in group. Now the shot is here, we agreed to it, I was even going to give them my keys in case I have to work some hours of the weekend, which I do. But they didn't know I have to work. So it's not like they are being nice and letting me have peace when I get from work/go to work, and then I would have understood why they did what they did. Now I don't understand. There's no way for them to find out I'll be working some, because I just found out myself too.
Well I talk to one of them and say 'well at least come for few hours when nothing else is on, just chill out and have some drinks or start up the night or something'. The answer is 'does everyone fit in', as in setting up the 'might not happen'. I was like 'yeah'. 'well.. I think there would be few people not coming there', as in the few people I don't know but they do. I say so what, bring them on too, they can come, doesn't matter. It's not like there's going ot be masses of people not knowing each other, just you guys. Then it was on and on about how little time there will be. ****, there will be a whole weekend and I knwo the hours too, so it's like who the hell are you trying to kid. I was still thinking well maybe he's trying to be nice and not bother my place, thinking I might work, which he doesn't know but still, so I say well, you MUST come, it'll be cool this is what we've been waiting for, and this is the perfect time, it won't get better than this. And it was like sures we'll see if there's a good shot for it. What the hell, a good shot for it?
It's like they're valuing all the stuff over few other folks I don't know who might feel uncomfy for committing going to someones place they don't know or some **** like that. I don't know what else could it be. But even so, it's really disappointment to me. I know they're still friends and all but.. most even childhood friends, the ones I've been praising here a lot.. well my best friends damn it. And now this. Doesn't sound like a big deal to lot of you but ot me it does. It's the most hurtful things I've heard. And it's not one, it's ALL of them. It's like everyone forgot I live there, and that they were supposed to come in just FOR that anyway this summer, and now they are in city anyway in big bunch, and now it's 'we have to see if there will be few hours maybe' in the middle of some day.
what the ****? And they know it's disrespectful because they didn't let me know. Otherwise they would have called me they made other arrangements. So it was set up so that I'd find out, and kind of be ok with it. Well I'm not OK with it. I feel betrayed^10000.
But I don't want to say screw them, because they are my good best friends. maybe I need to evaluate some things again but this sucks in multitudes. I suddenly feel extremely lonely.
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