Losing your mind

[Tiamat]

That's what I'm currently in the process of doing. I have some much ****e going wrong in my life right now that last week I even contemplated driving my car off the mopac bridge. I feel like I'm loosing my fu*king mind. I can't take the stress anymore and to top it all off I just found out that the lump in my throat that's been in remission for the last 15 years is now back.

What fuc*ing else!!!!! No computer access at home so this is my only post. Not really sure what I'm going to do anymore but I know i just can't keep doing this. needed to vent........

[Japher]

Don't Panic

It's only an illusion

Life is what you make it... enjoy

and remember

Don't Panic

think it through

we love you

[Tiamat]

need to panic need to get away and leaving tomorrow to go to my dad's. Husband is an ass and has basically gone through most of the money my father left me swearing to pay it back and the cancer's back.....this, dad, everything is just way way way to much to deal with. may post tomorrow if mom still has computer or I don't drive off the road....am in a really really bad place right now. really bad place.

[Zkribbler]

We need you here, Tia.

[chequita guevara]

Relax sweetie. It's not worth the stress.

[JohnT]

What happened to the money?

Do the kids still have their education funds?

[Japher]

it's not stress anymore

it's anxiety, I'm there too

it's a type of fear that seems to consume and make it impossible to anything you know it right...

the only thing that stops me, and that stops Tia is

Resiliance.

She is going to stay positive and figure out a way to fix the problem...

it won't be easy, but it's possible

Anger needs to be curbed

[Lancer]

That's terrible Tia, I hope things turn around for you. Don't jump to conclusion on the bump in your throat, could be nothing...

[chequita guevara]

Have some strawberries and dark chocolate.

[Urban Ranger]

Become a citizen of Canada. They have socialised medicine

[MrFun]

Hang in there Tia!!






Remember that dragons have much greater determination and resilience than mere humans.

[boann]

sorry your having so much stress in your life.
be nice to yourself....
you're a pretty strong woman , im sure you will
overcome whats facing you now.

[Pekka]

Sorry to hear this.

Let's look at it reasonably... the cancer thing... odds are it can be taken cared of again. Right?

About husbands being buttwipes, well.. I guess odds are that'll happen too if married!

About the money.. who knows. It can turn out still.. he says he promises, so who knows, maybe he's good for it. We can't know that yet.

I don't know about the other problems you are now facing/have faced, so I can't talk about any of this. But as an outsider, this is what it looks to me. Pressuring and ****ty situation, yet so common.. not to make it sound any less than it is though. These can be all beat basically. You haven't lost any of these battles yet. Just remember that. You'll get stronger in time when you are ready for it. I know it's like when people say to other people when they have divorced/broke up with someone, that the world is full of people, better suitable for them and they'll be OK again and even better. It sounds stupid, but it's true.. it's true. I don't know about your situation, but maybe you could take just a little quality time just for yourself and recharge your batteries a little bit, enough so you can wake up to another day with feeling of that something good will happen. Because they will happen.. usually crap comes in waves too, you get hit with one big one and then the other waves come too when you really don't need them. But that's the way it is sometimes.. so, just remember that you haven't lost any of these battles yet, and that there will be good mornings ahead, you'll be stronger too and feeling better. Sounds stupid, but it's true.

[Zkribbler]

Keep this remedy in your back pocket in case your really need it. I used it years ago when I was thinking of driving off the road.

Dump everything and move to Hawaii. It gets rid of most of your problems -- just like suicide -- but it's not as fatal.

[DaShi]

Find a hole in the ground and sit in there for awhile. It's very relaxing.