come on here and say something nice

[Pekka]

... and don't be an idiot.

I'm feeling sick. I'm taking way too much stress from studying, job etc etc. And it's me, I'm the one doing it to myself. I've said numerous times that I like pressure, I function the best under pressure. It's true, but I need some ... mental vacation for a minute so I can enjoy the pressure again. I feel like I have so much to do I can't make it even if miracle happened. I've taken too much stuff to do for myself and I feel sick, physically sick. Tired also.

I just need to make it this and the next month to get over, I thought it was going to be smooth sailing, but it isn't and my head hurts all the time and I feel like vomiting sometimes too. Not to mention I'm not at my sharpest right now. I'm functioning in 85% efficiency the best.

[Harry Tuttle]

You're mother smells like dingleberries!

[JohnT]

Pekka, you're a classic type-A in a (so I've heard) type-B society.

Come to where you're welcome... come to America.

[mrmitchell]

Pekka, you are the sexiest man alive.

Except for me and Sly.

[Boris Godunov]

Pekka, you're an incredible dufus and probably a borderline schizophrenic.

Hey, that made me feel nice!

[KrazyHorse]

Originally posted by Boris Godunov
borderline

[Pekka]

thanks JohnT.. I appreciate your nice words, even more so when I whip my mouth like a... something that whips a lot, but it's just talk and not meant seriously. If someone thinks 'is this guy serious or what?' then I'm not serious. That's the golden rule.

Anyway yes I will come to America and that's why I'm working so hard now. I can't say working hard as in.. like some people work harder. Just mentally tired, it makes me feel like a loser if I miss a course, even though I took way too much courses this semester. If I would keep this pace up, I would get my master in science in 2 years, from the beginning to the end. I thought I had all the energy and knowledge, and I did for a long time but now it seems like I ran out of gas. It's not like I'm giving up or anything, it's just that I just need to take a mental break. Like now, I feel guilty for staying up and watching Rocky movies,I should be doing this project and reading for exam that I have to take two days but I just don't feel up to it right now and it's not because I'd be lazy, it's just that sometiems you just won't.. I don't say can't, I say won't..

Lots of talking here, what I mean to say is I feel guilty very easily and I feel the threat of the loser easily, even though it would be failing to peal the banana correctly blindfolded. I can't explain it better than that. But I'll be back, and I'm definitely not out, just like.. I'd need a 2 week vacation somewhere warm, beach, ocean, some fun. My working schedule is also (besides studying) straight from hell, but I'll manage. I'd feel even more guilty leeching my old man anymore for money.

I'm from a culture of guilty. You know like good lutherans are taught, by feeling guilty. But I'll break out of those chains!!!!!!

I'm afraid this message makes no sense. But everything doesn't have to make sense if you ask me. It just is, and some things just are.

[Pekka]

OK NOW STOP WITH THE nice words! You're making me feel embarrased. As you should know, hey this is one for the what every American should know, is that complementing (even if lying to try to make them feel better) is worse than insulting them . It's true! You corner them. You are supposed to make understatements. No feedback is good feedback.

Let's talk something else. How do you handle the life when it starts overwhelming you with duties and schedules?

[Jon Miller]

I don't get things done

Jon Miller

[Pekka]

Jon Miller, that's how you handle things?

Well I guess it's true. Too much things to do makes you do even less if you had less to do to begin with. And one should remember that this is not the way things are done well.. with proper planning you can accomplish your goals so making impossible plans is just fooling oneself and making it worse. I still consider myself superhero though, and my only weakness is that I'm afraid of spiders. And snakes.

[Pekka]

I guess the moral lesson is that even bears don't rage all the time, they take a break and eat berries every once in a while.

[Winston]

Re: come on here and say something nice

Cookies.

[Jon Miller]

and mushrooms

don't forget the mushrooms

JM

[Lancer]

Pekka, it's a real pleasure and privilidge to enjoy your company and that of so many interesting people here at Poly.

Here's to Pekka!

[DaShi]

Agreed.