I stood amid the scorched ruins of Tal Zach, and for the first time since I was a child, I wept.
You might argue I had little reason to weep. My Nationalist Party had just won the congressional election by forty percentage points. Here in Azan, the war was over. In a matter of minutes I would sign a cease-fire with Frankychanland's General and then the battered and bloodied young soldiers, young men, in the circle around me, could go home.
But still I wept.
The election meant nothing any more. Besides, the old adage that all politics is local is more true in Karakas than anywhere else in the world. Compared to now, I knew nothing about international politics - and no-one cared. Not my party, not the voters, not my wife, not me. That's why the war momentum, the League of Armed Neutrality, the Guardinian government, the communists, the Jew Secularists, or whoever the conspiracy theorists are blaming these days, could lead me - lead my young soldiers - into the ruins of Tal Zach.
It was my fault and no-one else's. I should have seen it coming. I should have known that this was the wrong war, at the wrong place and the wrong time, with the wrong allies.
Though technically Karakas was on the winning side, still we lost. For the moment the guns started to speak, the only possible outcome was devastation, strife, terror, and the Great Collapse.
I should have seen it coming, but there was too much to do. There would be time for regret after the fall.
You might argue I had little reason to weep. My Nationalist Party had just won the congressional election by forty percentage points. Here in Azan, the war was over. In a matter of minutes I would sign a cease-fire with Frankychanland's General and then the battered and bloodied young soldiers, young men, in the circle around me, could go home.
But still I wept.
The election meant nothing any more. Besides, the old adage that all politics is local is more true in Karakas than anywhere else in the world. Compared to now, I knew nothing about international politics - and no-one cared. Not my party, not the voters, not my wife, not me. That's why the war momentum, the League of Armed Neutrality, the Guardinian government, the communists, the Jew Secularists, or whoever the conspiracy theorists are blaming these days, could lead me - lead my young soldiers - into the ruins of Tal Zach.
It was my fault and no-one else's. I should have seen it coming. I should have known that this was the wrong war, at the wrong place and the wrong time, with the wrong allies.
Though technically Karakas was on the winning side, still we lost. For the moment the guns started to speak, the only possible outcome was devastation, strife, terror, and the Great Collapse.
I should have seen it coming, but there was too much to do. There would be time for regret after the fall.
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