The sun hadn’t broken yet when my hands started to shake. I stared at them and marveled at the manifestation of my fear. I took comfort in that it wasn’t terror. Terror was plague to a soldier. It spread fast and hard, jumping from one soldier to the next. It fed on you and made you weak. A man’s body would betray him in a terror. It would make a man abandon his duty and training. A body would run to save itself while friends and brothers were cut down around it. But mine was only fear. It kept me sharp. It kept me alert. It had also kept me awake for another long night with my back pressed up against the last and best wall standing in Cumae. I was not terrified, I told myself again. I think it was true.
I stood and stretched my back. The light was coming up fast, but I could still see the stars. As a boy, my grandmother had pointed up to them and whispered tales of Jove, Minerva, and Venus. She told me that if you looked long enough you could see the outlines of the Gods and get a glimpse of the future they had planned for you. She told me that Mars cried out for me, as he had called out for her father and her brothers. She told me that when I was no longer a boy, the day would come when I would serve Ceasar in the Legion. She told me I would bring glory to the men that had brought glory to Rome. When I took my grandmother’s advice, and stared at the stars, I saw only glowing embers cast from a fire without plan or purpose. I did not hear the voice of Mars or see his words inscribed in the night sky. I thought to ask my parents, but I knew their answer. My parents thought my grandmother was insane.
“There are no gods.”
“They are myths from another age.”
“The old temple is but an empty shell.”
“There is but one God almighty.”
“He is the Lord of Hosts and the Forever King.”
“He will lead us to our salvation and upon our passing from the mortal realm we will join him in his mansion of many rooms.”
The told me all of this. They went to their Cathedral and they chanted it for hours on end. As if they so longed to join him in his mansion that life held no reward for them. They toiled in the fields. They bought their wares in the marketplace. Yet it seemed they only marked the days and seasons and prepared for when God called them to him. The only zeal I ever saw from them was when I told my father I thought he had thrown his life away to worship a lunatic notion, and that I was going to follow Mars by joining the Legion. He showed quite a bit of zeal then. In fact his zeal was such, that the marks across my back lasted the month it took me reach the barracks in Rome.
I was a boy then and foolish as boys often are. I thought I hated them. I thought the choice was living on my knees for their God or charging into battle for my Grandmother’s gods. As I finished buckling on my armor, I knew my parents had made a choice to live their lives the best they knew how. I forgave my father his lash, and I wondered if they forgave me my last hurtful words to them as I left for the Legion. I looked up at the stars and saw their meaning plain. We would die this day. I wondered who would greet me in the next world, my parents or my grandmother. Maybe neither. Perhaps I would only meet the vultures and the worms that would feast on my corpse.
I reached for my helmet and raised it my lips. I drank the last of the rainwater I had collected the day before. I felt the tightness in my stomach that I had become accustomed to in Cumae. There would be no bread today. Since the granary had been destroyed, there had been little to eat. There had been more food recently, as there was few left that still needed nourishment. Those that hadn’t starved had to contend with the cannons. I placed the helm on my head and watched the men around me rouse from the rough slumbers. The barracks had gone shortly after the granary. The only benefit of losing the barracks had been that we lost our commander with it. While he had been a fool, and it was a pleasure to be denied his company, it was also the main source of my fear. Since he had gone, I was in charge. The men looked to me to lead them. They didn’t realize I had no idea where to lead them.
“Gaius! Antony awaits you at the Western Gate. He asks for you to make haste,” said one of the conscripts. I had not seen him until then. As I looked at him, I saw the terror I had looked for in myself. He was not a man yet, but not enough a boy that he had been passed over when the call went out. All able-bodied males had been given pikes and told to defend their families. Of course the definition of “able-bodied” was not as vigorous as it had been in the days before the siege.
“Tell Antony I will be with him in a moment,” I told the manling. Was I ever that young? I had been 16 when I joined the legion. I had been 17 when I received the brand of Mars. It had been done in the half secret manner of the legion. The Republic had embraced Christianity for some time, but the Legion was allowed its traditions.
Walking to the west gate, I could see out across the harbor. It and the Wall were the only things still standing in Cumae. I squinted and was able to see across the strait. Home. Only a short distance, but impossible to reach. The blockade had been in place for years. If Rome had made any attempt to break it, they had failed. We had received no reinforcements or supplies since we had arrived. I couldn’t suppress a melancholic grin. When we had arrived with a battery of catapults we were invincible. We were the 15th Corps. We were the Eternal Legion, a name we earned put the last of Xerxes immortals to the sword. There was nothing that could withstand us. We were wrong.
The sun had broken. It wouldn’t be long now. The shadow of the hill, our only defense, was shrinking rapidly. I turned to see how long we had. The sun hadn’t quite crested the hill. We might have twenty minutes. The hill was another bitter reminder. It was why we were here. It was what allowed us to be Legionaires. It was also killing us by the dozen.
The hill contained the iron that had allowed Rome to survive Xerxes attacks. In fact, it was what allowed Rome to bury him. The Persian Empire had now moved from the maps to the history books. All that remained were a few slaves and a dying bloodline in a few far-flung cities. Yet that hill still stood tall. It was in my opinion the only thing of value of this accursed island. A hill, a desert, and the sea were all that Cumae had. It had been settled a few centuries back as a place to mine the ore. In all those centuries, Governors and officials had grown fat off the bribes and kickback that were the lifeblood of this city. Rome itself was a far off place to them. As long as the ore continued to be pulled from the ground, Ceasar was happy. As long as gold could be pulled out of the citizens, the Governor was happy. There had been a few public works built, but not enough to turn Cumae into anything worthwhile. That had all changed when they arrived. They had turned Cumae into a graveyard, and what could be more worthwhile to a man than his final resting place.
I had been in Antium, when it happened. The stories that filtered back to the mainland were clear. Men on horseback had arrived without warning. They had charged across the fields, capturing the citizens that were constructing the roads and marched them up the hill. As the few soldiers in the city watched, the unlucky souls caught outside were force to build fortifications. Efforts were made to speak with these men, but the had little to say. They were from a far off land, ruled by a half-mad woman who claimed to know the mind of God. They were French and they weren’t planning on leaving. They seemed content to sit in their newly built fortress and simply stop the flow of iron. All attempts at communication with their leader were rebuffed. Ceasar decided to let us communicate for him.
The 15th corps boarded the galley and watched as the catapults were loaded into the hold. We set sail soon after. As we approached the harbor, we saw ships coming over the horizon. I often wondered what would of happened if the ship master had waited another day. Would the French have turned us back to Antium? More likely, my bones would lying amidst the broken timbers of the galley at the bottom of the strait. The question that plagued me was, “Would that have been worse than where we are now?”
As I asked myself that question, the sun finally climbed over the hill and illuminated the rubble that remained of Cumae. The cannons punctuated my musings. As the screams from the Wall chased the cannons angry bellow, I ran. I needed to reach the West Gate. I needed to find Antony.
I stood and stretched my back. The light was coming up fast, but I could still see the stars. As a boy, my grandmother had pointed up to them and whispered tales of Jove, Minerva, and Venus. She told me that if you looked long enough you could see the outlines of the Gods and get a glimpse of the future they had planned for you. She told me that Mars cried out for me, as he had called out for her father and her brothers. She told me that when I was no longer a boy, the day would come when I would serve Ceasar in the Legion. She told me I would bring glory to the men that had brought glory to Rome. When I took my grandmother’s advice, and stared at the stars, I saw only glowing embers cast from a fire without plan or purpose. I did not hear the voice of Mars or see his words inscribed in the night sky. I thought to ask my parents, but I knew their answer. My parents thought my grandmother was insane.
“There are no gods.”
“They are myths from another age.”
“The old temple is but an empty shell.”
“There is but one God almighty.”
“He is the Lord of Hosts and the Forever King.”
“He will lead us to our salvation and upon our passing from the mortal realm we will join him in his mansion of many rooms.”
The told me all of this. They went to their Cathedral and they chanted it for hours on end. As if they so longed to join him in his mansion that life held no reward for them. They toiled in the fields. They bought their wares in the marketplace. Yet it seemed they only marked the days and seasons and prepared for when God called them to him. The only zeal I ever saw from them was when I told my father I thought he had thrown his life away to worship a lunatic notion, and that I was going to follow Mars by joining the Legion. He showed quite a bit of zeal then. In fact his zeal was such, that the marks across my back lasted the month it took me reach the barracks in Rome.
I was a boy then and foolish as boys often are. I thought I hated them. I thought the choice was living on my knees for their God or charging into battle for my Grandmother’s gods. As I finished buckling on my armor, I knew my parents had made a choice to live their lives the best they knew how. I forgave my father his lash, and I wondered if they forgave me my last hurtful words to them as I left for the Legion. I looked up at the stars and saw their meaning plain. We would die this day. I wondered who would greet me in the next world, my parents or my grandmother. Maybe neither. Perhaps I would only meet the vultures and the worms that would feast on my corpse.
I reached for my helmet and raised it my lips. I drank the last of the rainwater I had collected the day before. I felt the tightness in my stomach that I had become accustomed to in Cumae. There would be no bread today. Since the granary had been destroyed, there had been little to eat. There had been more food recently, as there was few left that still needed nourishment. Those that hadn’t starved had to contend with the cannons. I placed the helm on my head and watched the men around me rouse from the rough slumbers. The barracks had gone shortly after the granary. The only benefit of losing the barracks had been that we lost our commander with it. While he had been a fool, and it was a pleasure to be denied his company, it was also the main source of my fear. Since he had gone, I was in charge. The men looked to me to lead them. They didn’t realize I had no idea where to lead them.
“Gaius! Antony awaits you at the Western Gate. He asks for you to make haste,” said one of the conscripts. I had not seen him until then. As I looked at him, I saw the terror I had looked for in myself. He was not a man yet, but not enough a boy that he had been passed over when the call went out. All able-bodied males had been given pikes and told to defend their families. Of course the definition of “able-bodied” was not as vigorous as it had been in the days before the siege.
“Tell Antony I will be with him in a moment,” I told the manling. Was I ever that young? I had been 16 when I joined the legion. I had been 17 when I received the brand of Mars. It had been done in the half secret manner of the legion. The Republic had embraced Christianity for some time, but the Legion was allowed its traditions.
Walking to the west gate, I could see out across the harbor. It and the Wall were the only things still standing in Cumae. I squinted and was able to see across the strait. Home. Only a short distance, but impossible to reach. The blockade had been in place for years. If Rome had made any attempt to break it, they had failed. We had received no reinforcements or supplies since we had arrived. I couldn’t suppress a melancholic grin. When we had arrived with a battery of catapults we were invincible. We were the 15th Corps. We were the Eternal Legion, a name we earned put the last of Xerxes immortals to the sword. There was nothing that could withstand us. We were wrong.
The sun had broken. It wouldn’t be long now. The shadow of the hill, our only defense, was shrinking rapidly. I turned to see how long we had. The sun hadn’t quite crested the hill. We might have twenty minutes. The hill was another bitter reminder. It was why we were here. It was what allowed us to be Legionaires. It was also killing us by the dozen.
The hill contained the iron that had allowed Rome to survive Xerxes attacks. In fact, it was what allowed Rome to bury him. The Persian Empire had now moved from the maps to the history books. All that remained were a few slaves and a dying bloodline in a few far-flung cities. Yet that hill still stood tall. It was in my opinion the only thing of value of this accursed island. A hill, a desert, and the sea were all that Cumae had. It had been settled a few centuries back as a place to mine the ore. In all those centuries, Governors and officials had grown fat off the bribes and kickback that were the lifeblood of this city. Rome itself was a far off place to them. As long as the ore continued to be pulled from the ground, Ceasar was happy. As long as gold could be pulled out of the citizens, the Governor was happy. There had been a few public works built, but not enough to turn Cumae into anything worthwhile. That had all changed when they arrived. They had turned Cumae into a graveyard, and what could be more worthwhile to a man than his final resting place.
I had been in Antium, when it happened. The stories that filtered back to the mainland were clear. Men on horseback had arrived without warning. They had charged across the fields, capturing the citizens that were constructing the roads and marched them up the hill. As the few soldiers in the city watched, the unlucky souls caught outside were force to build fortifications. Efforts were made to speak with these men, but the had little to say. They were from a far off land, ruled by a half-mad woman who claimed to know the mind of God. They were French and they weren’t planning on leaving. They seemed content to sit in their newly built fortress and simply stop the flow of iron. All attempts at communication with their leader were rebuffed. Ceasar decided to let us communicate for him.
The 15th corps boarded the galley and watched as the catapults were loaded into the hold. We set sail soon after. As we approached the harbor, we saw ships coming over the horizon. I often wondered what would of happened if the ship master had waited another day. Would the French have turned us back to Antium? More likely, my bones would lying amidst the broken timbers of the galley at the bottom of the strait. The question that plagued me was, “Would that have been worse than where we are now?”
As I asked myself that question, the sun finally climbed over the hill and illuminated the rubble that remained of Cumae. The cannons punctuated my musings. As the screams from the Wall chased the cannons angry bellow, I ran. I needed to reach the West Gate. I needed to find Antony.
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