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Manifesto of a determined "leader"....
Quite recently I have been called numerous names, and have been the subject of numerous adjectives. Some possibly warranted, others were attributed to me with no prior knowledge at all.
A lot of people are confused by me, they consider me short tempered, they consider me to be too confrontational to play with.
Here is what makes me tick, and by the way, thank you very much for reading what I have posted....
I do not like civilization for the "normal" reasons people do, I don't particularly enjoy faceless and emotionless conflit. I don't particularly enjoy the idea of exponential growth for the sake of exponential growth, I don't particularly enjoy the idea of double movement or double production. That is what goes through my head when these things are brought to the table, I dislike them, but I will be the first to tell you; I have on many occasions played with one or more of these variables in action.
Anyone who has actually played a game with me, I hope at least, will speak volumes of me. I am a very exceptional personality when it comes to the game of civilization, even OzzyKP, who's words to me have been silenced by my bragadocious manner will readily admit that I am an enjoyable competitor. The reason I am confrontational, the reason I speak from my heart rather than my brain is quite simple:
I am a determined player.
A lot of people here have blasted me for what I have done to Nap Bonaparte, a "respected" member of the Apolyton Community. I do not deny his reputation, nor do I deny his ability to play. I posted the argument for two reasons, one was an immature reason but is offset by the fact of the second. This is what I felt, and I figured that the forum of the community would be a perfect place to air this laundry.
Apparently I was wrong. I apologize right now to Nap Bonaparte for posting what I posted, it was immature of me to do, and in essence (whether incorrectly or not) told the rest of the community that I am self-centered, "uneducated", peice of ****.
However, I am not reneging. Nap, that is what I feel, those things I said in that particular post are my true emotions, and you have to understand that. You basically ruined something that I actually poured part of myself into. I thought for hours on petty details, small minute factors that would most likely not make much of a differance, I deliberated over small matters so the game can be an enjoyable experience for not only Nap, but the rest of the players involved.
I made sacrifices for this game, granted none very major or earth-shattering, but sacrifices were made over this game. I am not blaming Nap for them, I am merely saying that after what occured on that night, they were all in vain, they were all for naught.
Anyone who has ambition, and determination applies heart and soul to their words and actions. To do any less would not enthrall anyone. So here I am, telling you that I am being lambasted by the people I worked so hard for, and I am telling you the reasons why I did what I did.
To finalize this post, which is basically a mish-mash of thoughts going through my head on this issue, I will say this:
I apologize to those who have respected me, to those who have thought of me in a high regard, for posting what I posted and for acting the way I acted. I apologzie to Nap for showing a lot of people who respect and like you, a limited conversation that did not show what lead up to it. I apologize to the players in the game, Adam, Sun, Chris, Joe, Drake, and Nap for the time I wasted and for the amount of crap I put you through. I apologize to Apoltyon for bringing up an issue that was probably not needed for the purposes of this forum.
So whatever, you want to continue to hate me for saying what I feel do so. Its not an issue to me, you have a right to ignore and listen to whomever you wish, but at least understand that I am not doing this out of simple immaturity or idiocy, there is a method to my madness.
And if you were "there" when it occured, you would probably understand that I am not overexaggerating the situation as much as most of you believe.
Thanks, The Cap'
Ming: I still think you're a *****.
A lot of people are confused by me, they consider me short tempered, they consider me to be too confrontational to play with.
Here is what makes me tick, and by the way, thank you very much for reading what I have posted....
I do not like civilization for the "normal" reasons people do, I don't particularly enjoy faceless and emotionless conflit. I don't particularly enjoy the idea of exponential growth for the sake of exponential growth, I don't particularly enjoy the idea of double movement or double production. That is what goes through my head when these things are brought to the table, I dislike them, but I will be the first to tell you; I have on many occasions played with one or more of these variables in action.
Anyone who has actually played a game with me, I hope at least, will speak volumes of me. I am a very exceptional personality when it comes to the game of civilization, even OzzyKP, who's words to me have been silenced by my bragadocious manner will readily admit that I am an enjoyable competitor. The reason I am confrontational, the reason I speak from my heart rather than my brain is quite simple:
I am a determined player.
A lot of people here have blasted me for what I have done to Nap Bonaparte, a "respected" member of the Apolyton Community. I do not deny his reputation, nor do I deny his ability to play. I posted the argument for two reasons, one was an immature reason but is offset by the fact of the second. This is what I felt, and I figured that the forum of the community would be a perfect place to air this laundry.
Apparently I was wrong. I apologize right now to Nap Bonaparte for posting what I posted, it was immature of me to do, and in essence (whether incorrectly or not) told the rest of the community that I am self-centered, "uneducated", peice of ****.
However, I am not reneging. Nap, that is what I feel, those things I said in that particular post are my true emotions, and you have to understand that. You basically ruined something that I actually poured part of myself into. I thought for hours on petty details, small minute factors that would most likely not make much of a differance, I deliberated over small matters so the game can be an enjoyable experience for not only Nap, but the rest of the players involved.
I made sacrifices for this game, granted none very major or earth-shattering, but sacrifices were made over this game. I am not blaming Nap for them, I am merely saying that after what occured on that night, they were all in vain, they were all for naught.
Anyone who has ambition, and determination applies heart and soul to their words and actions. To do any less would not enthrall anyone. So here I am, telling you that I am being lambasted by the people I worked so hard for, and I am telling you the reasons why I did what I did.
To finalize this post, which is basically a mish-mash of thoughts going through my head on this issue, I will say this:
I apologize to those who have respected me, to those who have thought of me in a high regard, for posting what I posted and for acting the way I acted. I apologzie to Nap for showing a lot of people who respect and like you, a limited conversation that did not show what lead up to it. I apologize to the players in the game, Adam, Sun, Chris, Joe, Drake, and Nap for the time I wasted and for the amount of crap I put you through. I apologize to Apoltyon for bringing up an issue that was probably not needed for the purposes of this forum.
So whatever, you want to continue to hate me for saying what I feel do so. Its not an issue to me, you have a right to ignore and listen to whomever you wish, but at least understand that I am not doing this out of simple immaturity or idiocy, there is a method to my madness.
And if you were "there" when it occured, you would probably understand that I am not overexaggerating the situation as much as most of you believe.
Thanks, The Cap'
Ming: I still think you're a *****.
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