|Guru Beli'Az hides in his room|
After finishing the letter to the Russians,
Beli'Az (tanned by the sun) returned to his personal room.
He needed to rest.
Inside his room he fell on his bed.
Cried like a baby.
The reports from Mehmed had broken him.
"I can't do it anymore.
It's all so difficult" he cried with his head buried under some pillows.
"They all want me to be mean and scary, but I simply can't do it"
His body was shakin.
"First the Russians want help, then the Ottomans want help. They all want help from me. But I'm scared. Now the Koreans are angry and I never wanted to scare them. I can't help it that I'm that huge and that I scare them all" he continued to whine.
"Help me mother, help me.
I wish that I was never born.
I should have been killed when I was a baby.
My life should have been terminated in it's dawn.
But now her I am.
Carrying the power of a hawk with the heart of a sparrow.
My hand on the button of destruction while I care for construction.
Mother please, take me back inside.
I don't want it anymore"
Then he straightened his face again and left the room.
No one knew about the heart of this Fat Lord.